There’s a lot of places you can go for help with addiction, and there’s a lot of certified professionals you can go to as well. There’s also drug counseling. It is my opinion, however, that there’s no better coaching when it comes to addiction then what’s offered by someone who went through it personally.
I don’t like to brag, and I never really do, but I will take this time to brag.
Going cold turkey, I quit Lexapro, Oxycontin, Percocet and Vicodin, Adderall at 90 mgs per day, and suboxone twice. That’s quite a list, I know, thank you.
What I want to share with whoever needs to hear this today is my secret for getting off suboxone. This is priceless.
Suboxone is what they give people who have an addiction to pain medication, but at some point you have to get off the Suboxone as well, and Suboxone carries a nasty with drawl.
First of all, you need to be ready to stop taking suboxone, and I knew I was ready to stop taking it when I would leave my house without it. Suboxone was always on my mind, and I always took it with me wherever I went. It became as routine as putting your wallet and car keys on the dresser.
Then, one day, I left the house with a free mind. I started my car, and I said, “Wait a minute, I’m forgetting something.” It was my suboxone, but right there, I knew I was ready because it wasn’t ruling my mind.
So, here it is. You’re not going to get over taking suboxone by weaning. You can. You can gradually reduce your dosage. Whatever it is, 8mg, to 6 mg, to 4 mg, to 2 mg, to 1 mg daily. You’re still going to with drawl when you finally decide to stop taking it.
Many times I gradually reduced my daily dosage only to go running back to my doctor a day later. Don’t kid yourself, don’t lie to yourself, and don’t fucking play with suboxone. Respect it because it’s fucking your body up.
The only way to conquer suboxone is to force yourself to go without it. Good has to overcome evil, and by that, I mean, in a ten day span, you have to go more days not taking it then you do taking it. This will gradually give your body a chance to adjust. Take it one one day, then take a day off. In ten days, it’s tied 5-5.
Take it one day, then take two days off. Good is winning 6-4. Take it one day, then go three days without it. Good is winning 7-3.
God gave you free will, and anything that takes away your free will can only be evil. EVERYTHING and ANTHIING that controls you is bad. Dependency is bad.
The fight comes when you decide to go without it. I was taking 6 to 8 mg daily for five years. Five years! That’s a long time to be on a medication, but I needed it. Then, I was forced to go three days without it. I went nuts.
They were the three worst days ever. I knew if I didn’t go back to my doctor I was either going to get beat up, get locked up, or lose my job. But, I made a promise to myself. I said, “I just went three days without, and as bad as that was, I’m still alive.” I promised myself that if I went back to my doctor that I would continue to build off that three day head start.
Instead of going back to 6 to 8 mg, I took 2mg so I could eat, go to work, and sleep. I wasn’t able to do any of that. That 2 mg piece was just enough to get me over the hump. Having it in my possession, but knowing I didn’t need it was comforting. Don’t get rid of it until you’re over it. You’ll have panic attacks if you need it and don’t have it.
The half-life on suboxone is long. That’s why if you take it everyday you’re only overkilling your body.
If you take it Sunday, then on Monday your mind says take it, don’t. You’ll get nausea, heart burn, stomach cramps, and anxiety. That’s pretty much the progression. Then, you’ll get aggravated, miserable, angry, and maybe violent. That’s good. Keep going.
You’ll threaten people, you’ll tell your mother to go fuck herself, and basically expose yourself for the addict that you are. That’s good, get it all out. Keep going.
When you get to point where you’re unable to sleep, unable to eat, and unable to go to work because you’re incapable of dealing with people in your condition, and it’s been a few days, then you’re just about where you need to be.
Take a small piece to take the edge off, and keep progressing.
Good luck!
In closing, I would like to say this. I have patience, compassion, and understanding for people who are addicted to drugs. Some people are overwhelmed and killed by their addictions, and others win their lives back.
Conquering your addictions is your responsibility, and you deserve as many chances as you need to win your life back.
Addiction is the friendly guy who comes to you when you’re young, vulnerable, and going through hard times. He sees you struggling, and he says, “Hey, I can get you through this.”
He extends his open hand, you indulge, and all your problems seem to go away. But they don’t.
What actually happens is the clock stops. Addiction stops the clock, he numbs you, and he makes you forget about your problems, it doesn’t solve your problems.
It takes your mind and focuses it on him so you’re not thinking about your problems, and in the process, he stops time. You think you’re progressing, but you never are. The clock doesn’t resume until you conquer addiction and face life with a sober mind.
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