The Path of Spirituality

Friends, fans, and followers, good morning!  It’s 12:35 am here, and I’m blogging from my car. 🤣

So, I was just watching a video of an interview on YouTube of a woman who I think highly of and who has been a tremendous source of understanding and love for at least a decade now. She doesn’t know that, though.

I didn’t know the girl conducting the interview, but I had mixed emotions about her.  I could be wrong, I guess, and maybe it’s because I’ve been trying for the last ten years to talk to the woman she was interviewing, but she just 9didn’t seem right.  And, it got me thinking.

There are a lot of people, probably more than you think, who are in this field of meditation, healing, and spirituality, who are forcing it.  That’s putting it nicely, and I think this is important to say because this field is uniquely different in so many ways.  Like other fields, we have real, genuine, and sincere people here, and of course, we have those who are looking to take advantage.

You have to be careful.  There are lots of people who claim to be experts, gurus, and leaders when they’re not. 

You see, this path is open to everyone, and that draws all types people.  We’re all humans with five senses plus a sixth that most aren’t aware of.  Spirit is within all of us, so it’s not that this is some exclusive club, but there’s a difference between the mix of people you find here.

Personally, I didn’t intrude, and I didn’t wake up one day claiming to be some meditation expert or spiritual guru.  I had an awakening that began with synchronicities.  Part of that awakening meant the realization concerning the truth about the world and myself.  At that point, you have two options.  You can pretend nothing happened and return to your mainstream lifestyle like everyone else, or you could accept and embrace the truth and move forward towards a path of light.

I chose the second option.  I guess it’s hard for people to accept the truth, but for me, it wasn’t even a choice.  I wanted truth, I wanted real, and if the salvation of my soul was a possibility, then that was a responsibility I felt should be in my hands.

In this field, people claim all types of things, and part of the reason why that happens is because it’s metaphysical.  I don’t know what you saw, what you heard, what you felt, or what you thought.  Only you know, and that’s what makes this so special.  The answers you seek are within you, so if you’re lying to me, you’re lying to yourself as well.

Because of that, you don’t belong, but that’s for you to figure out.  I’m not going to say you don’t belong.  I don’t have to say anything.  I can see it.  The truth, however, is not that you don’t belong, but rather, it’s not the right time, so why force it?

The mainstream life is easy. We’re born into it and conditioned to accept it.  It’s comfortable.  Basically, you’re on autopilot, and it’s like a dream.  I know this because that’s what I came from, but I didn’t wake up one morning and decide to be spiritual.  Most people don’t.  

As you’re living your life, certain things happen, and we’re forced to make changes and adjust.  After we adjust, it will become obvious if our our old lives are accomodating the people we’ve become. 

But believe me, at some point, there has to be an awakening.  You’ll never wake up from the dream unless there’s an awakening.  Something has to happen that either knocks you off course, prevents you from getting what you want, or shows you everything you believed in was a lie.  There has to be hardship, struggle, and pain to the extent that you begin to question the meaning of life.

At that point, you break free from the mainstream and go hunting for answers.

Sacred Masculine

Sunday, December 11, 2022.

How is everyone doing? I can’t believe Christmas is coming up in two weeks. It doesn’t feel like the holiday season, and it hasn’t for a long time, but whatever. I hope to recover the spirit of holiday season at some point.

Decisions, decisions..

I’ve been thinking about how I wanted to word this over the last several days, and I think the best way to put it is like this..

It’s easy to give advice, right? I mean, whenever friends comes to us for advice, we know exactly what to say, and we say it. We give them the best advice and probably, the answers to cure their dilemmas.

What about when it’s time for us to do what’s best for ourselves? I feel like doing the right thing is hard. Especially, when it requires us to challenge ourselves and break out of our comfort zones.

And that’s where I’m going to leave that conversation.


Please, let me jump to another point I made recently in a recent post that had something to do with this spiritual path I’m on. I don’t know where it’s going to lead. I can’t sit here and tell you I’ll be better off twenty years from now because of it, and because of that, I have to continue living my life in a way that makes sense.

I don’t tell anyone what to do or what to believe, but in a sense, I’ve opened the door for those who would like to begin their own journey. That doesn’t mean we’re going to be walking side by side down the yellow brick road. No.

I’m sharing my experiences and what I’m going through because there is no tour guide, but please, take your time and enjoy your life. Sometimes I feel like I’m operating in overdrive, and I couldn’t even tell you how I’ve come to this point. You really need to live each day aware and just be in the moment.

For those who are in your twenties, your Saturn return is coming up; by the time you celebrate your 29th birthday, Saturn should’ve made one full orbit or revolution around the sun. That’s about the time this path opened up for me.


I’m not sure what the masses think about spirituality or the “spiritual path,” because let’s face it, it’s definitely not mainstream. Nope, it’s definitely not mainstream, and it’s not mainstream because this is a battle the “powers that be” feel like they’ve already won. In case you haven’t noticed, the mainstream doesn’t teach you about you. It’s really about you worshipping everyone else-the singers, the actors, the athletes, the special groups, minorities, democrats/republicans, etc. Just go to work everyday and support whoever we tell you is special.

No. And this is what gripped me so hard in the beginning. As soon as I found out astrology and almost every other thing frowned upon could be used by me to learn about myself, I was all in! There are no subjects in school that help you learn about yourself.

The “spiritual path” is about you taking something back that has been stolen from you.

In her book, Chiron, Rainbow Bridge Between Inner and Outer Planets, Barbara Hand Clow comes straight out and tells us, and this is just one example but, “the power for astrologers to initiate clients who manifest for them can be done if the astrologer can find the client’s true purpose in the chart-this is a great power and a skill stolen from us for thousands of years by the orthodox priesthood and those in power.”

Do you understand what this means? I made a true statement the other day, I said, “I’m not a priest or a judge, but people definitely stand up when I walk into a room.” I wasn’t lying and I wasn’t saying that to be funny. It’s true, and it’s a great example of what Clow was talking about.

You see, the priest and the judge will force you to stand for them when they walk into the room. They’ll force you. In reality, they’re acting and playing, but the judge is in a position that grants him the power to ruin your life. So you’ll stand and respect him because you’re being forced to.

A lot of people are afraid to take their power on because they don’t know what to do or how to act if someone wasn’t over them. We placed people above us to protect our way of life. The idea was for all humans to unite as Americans. And as Americans we were going to use our God-given rights and abilities to pursue happiness (OUR SOULS).

This was about the sacred masculine and the divine feminine coming together; life liberty and the freedom to pursue happiness as long as you weren’t hurting anyone else, do as you wish. We placed a government above us to protect this way of life.

And today, it is that same government that threatens our way of life. Just recently, a man was pulled over by the police because of his bumper sticker. I think it said Nancy Pelosi sucks. The police said it might cause a confrontation or something.

We’ve reached a point where we can’t even express our opinions about our elected officials. So, I ask you this: “How are we supposed to change something if we can’t even talk about it?”

Now, I think you can see the real issue here.

The second amendment gives us the right to defend ourselves our communities and and country. It gives us the right to bear arms so that we can defend, but this is supposed to be a last resort.

War is man at his lowest. War and violence is the outcome when no other resolutions can be reached. That’s why the first amendment is FIRST. But if they take the first amendment away, then all it leaves is the potential for violence. They are slowly pushing us into a corner.

The problem here is that there are people in this country that hate it. There are people serving in our government that hate America. That’s not a lie. They hate the constitution, they hate God, they hate freedom, and they hate liberty, but they’re well disguised and have a lot of people fooled.

As soon as they reveal themselves and the people speak up, they take the right to speak away. I don’t know if we need to abolish and start anew, but we definitely need to reestablish where the power in this country lies. We don’t need to start a new government, we need to take our government back from the people who hate this country.

Seriously, we need to pull an Elon Musk, and fire three quarters of our elected officials. We as the citizens of this country have that right, don’t be fooled. And I don’t give a shit what they say on television or in the newspaper about how that’s treason or illegal-no that’s bullshit.

Well, that’s not where I wanted this post to end, but I guess that’s what needed to be said. So, there it is.

Have a wonderful night, and enjoy the week ahead.

Mister V, Takeoff; Sacrifice?

For those who haven’t heard, Kirsnick Ball, aka Takeoff one of three members of the rap group Migos, was the Most Recent Victim in this eerie string of murders in the hip hop world over the years.

Obviously, I’m not in that world, but for those who are, the news of such a tragedy is going to hit harder sooner. But during the last several weeks I’ve been going through the YouTube videos, and I said to myself, “Damn, this is really sad and unfortunate.”

Takeoff was shot and killed at a bowling alley in Houston, Texas during the early morning hours of November 1st. He was just 28-years old.

Now, I’ve heard a lot of people say that Takeoff was sacrificed, and I understand this as I’ve expressed in my third book, Smorgasbord 3 Prophecy and Poverty, that the murder of JFK was a sacrifice. And not just a sacrifice, but a recreation of the murder of Jesus in front of Mary as he was shot and killed in front of his wife Jackie.

In response to the people who believed Takeoff’s death was a murder/sacrifice, others have said, “Bullshit, it was a dispute. An argument that began over a dice game escalated into the shooting and eventual murder.”

What’s true?

While dying on the cross, Jesus said, “Forgive them father, for they know not what they do.”

It’s obvious from watching the videos that an argument occurred and then Takeoff was shot and killed. That’s on the surface of the situation, and the quickest and most easiest way of wrapping it all up.


Halloween/Samhain, on 10/31, was celebrated as a time of endings. Samhain represented the end of the harvest, the old year, and then end of the Summer season. This is the time when the ancients believed the God departs, and the Goddess mourns but know he’ll be reborn (reincarnate) at the Yule.

This is why I don’t understand why people are so against the idea of reincarnation. At one time it was apart of our faith. Anyway, I digress, but..

I’m not saying the person who shot Takeoff was a believer in the Old Religion or Paganism, and I’m not suggesting that the person who shot takeoff decided to kill him in the name of Samhain.

Sometimes, things just happen. People, sometimes, do things without thinking in certain places and at certain times. I don’t think the person who shot Takeoff said to himself, I’m going to sacrifice Takeoff, but he did shoot and kill Takeoff at the proper time to coincide with the ritual sacrifice.

So, I redirect your attention to words of Jesus as he was dying on the cross, “Forgive them father, for they know not what they do.”

Now, the reason why a lot of people are saying it was a sacrifice was because of all the symbolism in the video for their song, “Messy.” In the beginning of the video, Takeoff and Quavo were sleeping in a car, and both woke up saying to one another, they had a bad dream.

The video begins, and it looks like Takeoff and Quavo are walking through a haunted house decorated with things you’d see on Halloween. Then, there’s a point in the video when Takeoff is standing next to a Grim Reaper who’s holding a sign that says RIP.

Again, “Forgive them father, for they know not what they do.”

That video, the murder of Takeoff, and this whole situation in its entirety, is revealing the energy and the secrets of the universe. I don’t believe Takeoff and Quavo made that video knowing one of them would actually be murdered a little after 2 AM on November 1st. The video and the song were unique, individually expressive, and ultimately, revealing of the creative spirit within. The spooky thing is that it turned out to be an unintentional foreshadow of things to come.

Life is a journey, and we’re supposed to work towards awakening and becoming consciously aware of who we are, were, and will be. Eventually, if we’re paying attention, life will show us, and that’s why they say the Devil is in the Details.

DEVIL in reverse is LIVED, and that’s not by chance. We all lived before, and I keep telling you guys this, your salvation is becoming consciously aware of who you are so you don’t keep making the same mistakes every time you incarnate.

If you want to blow your own mind, go back a look at old pictures of yourself, but don’t look at yourself. Look at what’s around you and in the background. Then think about what was going on in your life at that time.

What you will realize is that you’ve been stepping in sync. You’ve always been in the right places at the right times, and no matter what you do, you’re life is ending up and turning out the only way it was meant to.

This was truly sad, just as sad as the Pop Smoke murder.

Was the murder of Takeoff a sacrifice?

I don’t believe sacrifice was the intent of the man who pulled the trigger, but that doesn’t mean it wasn’t. The bigger picture here is that this event like so many others was a Revelation, and that’s the time we’re living in-a time when all things will be made known to all people.

Do you how many people laugh when I say there’s a spiritual war going on? “Yeah right, we’re passed all that,” they say.

There is though. There is a war going on right now, and it is spiritual. I read in a book, written by a man who interviewed a member of one of the world’s most secret societies, that at the highest levels of global elite, they play for the souls of man. And they do it through controlling perception.

You can read what I pasted below in its entirety if you want, but the most important paragraphs are the two beginning with, “But the Bible claims…and the one after it beginning with, “God then publicly declares..

“The real enemy was never Rome, but the Spiritual powers that lie behind Rome and every other kingdom whose weapon is death.”

Be easy and enjoy the ride.

That Other Path

As I look in my book collection, I see authors like;

Glenn Sanderfur, Cal Garrison, Barbara Clow, Edgar Cayce, Bernie Ashman, Zecharia Sitchin, Colin Wilson, Rand Flem-Ath, Ann Moura, Robert Howell etc.

The list goes on, but as I look at this small but randomly handpicked collection, it’s obvious where my interests and passions are.

This is where the fun is and this is where the truth is-occult studies and mystical work done by people who weren’t afraid to follow their hearts and minds.

I’ve been laughed at and I’ve been called everything from crack-head to liar for the ideas I’ve presented, but I understand the pushback. People get comfortable, and as a result, become stuck in their own beliefs, so much, they don’t want to let go or be challenged in any way.

But look here, the world is changing. It says right in the bible, “ask and you shall receive, seek and you shall find; remain sober minded for we’re in the end times.” The signs are everywhere everyday, but you’ll never see them if you’re controlling everything around you because you’re afraid.

The truth as they say, shall set us free, but truth is a narrow path. Everyday you walk that path, the system in which we live shovels piles and piles nonsense into it. They not only want to impede your progress and slow you down, they want to bury you!

I don’t ever tell anyone what to believe, but I just told someone close to me, when you wake up I’ll be here for you. He’s just now getting on his path. You’ll know when you’re finally on the path when you begin to have that inner feeling-like something is pulling at you, and this feeling that something bigger and more important is out there waiting for you. That’s the start.

I just want to say thank you to all the authors I mentioned above for their work and for having the courage to go against the grain. Being present in the here and now is important, but there’s a beautiful magical world out here.


Female Cardinal
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Cardinal comes from the Latin Cardinalis-pertaining to a hinge; applied to that on which something turns or depends.

The number 12 is related to the cardinal as there are 12 eggs in a cardinals nest.

It symbolizes passionate romance and fierce leadership.

A cardinal rule is one of great importance; crucial and pivotal.

A cardinal number is a natural number as in zero, one, two, or three, etc.

Ina nautical sense, there are 4 cardinal directions, north, south, east, and west.

The cardinal does not migrate in the winter, it stands its ground.

Male Cardinal
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Birds are free creatures. They’re messengers from heaven. If a cardinal appears to you and wakes you up out of your slumber it could be a message; a symbol. You’re at a crucial point in your life. Stand tall and weather the storm. Be on the lookout for passion and romance. Be natural and act with precision. Be a leader. I am free; free to choose, free to live, and free to be.

Awakening, Letting Go, and Finding Purpose


Francis Joseph LaManna

Sometimes things happen during our lives and a light switch gets flipped.  The deeper and more focused you are, the greater the event.  When the new millennium began in 2000 and 2001, I was head down and shoulder pads deep in football.  It was my third year at William Paterson University in Wayne, New Jersey, and we were preparing for our third game when 911 brought the country to a screeching halt. 

Football was my life, I loved it, but a new reality was on the horizon.  Of course, I was upset.  My sacred space had been infiltrated, and I was forced to look up and around at the new world before me.  Never, in all my years of playing had a football game been cancelled.  It took some time, but eventually I accepted the facts.  Football was just a game, and all games end, but with every ending, there’s a bright new beginning. 

We are living through amazing times, we truly are.  If part of our mission here is to wake up, you couldn’t ask for anything more.  In March of this year the school district I was teaching in was shutdown immediately on the 12th because of COVID-19.  Soon after, the entire country was shut down.  In April, we saw Americans out protesting the “stay-at-home-order.”  Citizens all over the country were occupying their state capitals and local town centers. 

In May, first amendment supporters were pushed aside as peaceful protests and public assemblies gave way to violence and looting as we experienced the backlash of the George Floyd murder.  Here we are now; November is right around the corner and as a country, we’re still dealing with the COVID crisis.  I know there are people all over the world who are upset, and I know there are a lot of young men and women who feel like their private sanctuaries have been infiltrated-just like I did, and that’s a good thing.  If you’re upset and frustrated it means you’re being woken up for a higher calling.  Consciousness is kicking the door in, and it’s screaming.  It’s telling you that you have a real purpose.  You might be young, and your generation may not be running the word at the moment, but you need to embrace the change.

As we look around at the new world before us, we can see the turmoil in political, religious, educational, economic, and ecological systems, but remember, there’s a bright new beginning after every ending.  The energies are powerful, and something special is going to come out of all this, but in the meantime, we must figure out a way to navigate through this new and changing reality.  Go with the flow. 

I always wanted to be a writer.  I was a communication major in college with concentration studies in journalism, but after graduating, I pursued teaching.  I pursued teaching in New Jersey, and again in Pennsylvania.  When 2020 began, I was enrolled in a teacher certification program at a local college and I was substitute teaching.  For me, COVID-19 was the new 911.  The country came to a screeching halt, I couldn’t teach, and I couldn’t go to school.  I was upset and frustrated, and once again, my sacred space had been infiltrated, but I learned.  I didn’t spend time dwelling on what was.  Events beyond my control were pushing me in a direction.  When I stopped resisting, I realized the position was one I always wanted to be in. 

When the economy shut down, and I was at home, I didn’t complain about being out of work; I didn’t complain about school closing.  I wrote a book, and I sent the manuscript to several publishers.  A month later, I received a call from Fulton Books in Meadville Pennsylvania, who eventually would become the publisher.  The book is titled, Smorgasbord A Collection of Thoughts, Experiences, and Stories, and it should be available for purchase before the end of this year. 

Consciousness is something within all of us, but it’s something that must be activated.  It must be sparked or lit.  It must be stoked.  The switch must be flipped, and it’s not the good things you enjoy doing that’s going to do it for you.  It’s the turmoil.  All the things we’re experiencing right now in 2020 that’s disrupting our way of life will.  The roadblocks, the setbacks, and all the things beyond your control that frustrates and angers you will.  Yes, we’re living through amazing times so don’t spend too much time dwelling on what was.  You’re being pushed towards something greater.  Go with the flow.