In a time of Universal deceit, truth-telling becomes a revolutionary act.
George Orwell
In a way, I feel like the character (Bobby Pool) from the story I just wrote, Loop, because since 2007, I’ve been stuck in a repeating situation. Since 2016, this situation has intensified.
I’ll get hired at a job, and everything is great. Around the fifth or sixth month, as soon as I begin to get out of debt and reach a point of financial stability, something happens that causes me to lose my job.
Then, I’ll go a month or two without a job before finally getting hired again, but by that time, I’ve fallen back into debt again.
I used to analyze this problem, and believe me, I’ve taken full responsibility, but I can’t take responsibility anymore. I can’t blame myself anymore, and it’s time for me to accept this situation for what it is.
Maybe it’s time for a change, a big change; like packing up what little I have and moving by myself to another part of the country, or out of the country. I’m not hiding anything, and I’m not running from anyone.
I’m a hard-worker. I show up ready to work and on time whenever I’m scheduled. I’m always in a great mood, and I always greet my co-workers.
I don’t owe anyone anymore than that.
I don’t have go overboard to accommodate envious, jealous, and miserable people. If you don’t like me, that’s okay. You don’t have to talk to me. If you want to make up lies and stories about me, that’s okay.
But, I will not be a shit-on, and I will not be disrespected. I expect to be treated the way I treat people, and if you come to work miserable because of something that happened at home or with your spouse or your children, that’s not my problem. If you think you’re going to boost your mood and release your anger and misery by shitting on me, then you’re delusional. I will speak up. I will call you out.
I’m not that person, and that’s not fair to me-but if that’s what I’m going to be fired for, then your job isn’t for me.
If you’re my manager or boss and you’re treating me unfairly and asking or requiring me to do things you don’t require from other employees, I’m going to speak up. I’ll always be an outspoken person who tells the truth.
I don’t get along with liars, people who are full of pride, or people who are in competition with me. I have nothing to prove, and the only person I’m in competition with is me. I’m trying to be the best person I can be, I’m not trying to be better than you.
I don’t have time anymore for immaturity, adults who act like children, people who are needy for attention, people who need their egos stroked, people who are threatened by my intelligence, and people who believe the false opinions they have of me before they even meet me.
I’m 43-years-old, and I don’t have much money, but I’m operating at a high level spiritually and mentally. I guess it’s time for me to find my place in the world. It’s time for me to find the people who are operating on or above my level.
I’m always the eagle in a nest of pigeons, but I think it’s time for me to find the company who can help me learn and evolve. It’s time to leave those who are draining me behind. That’s not being conceited, it’s the truth.
And in today’s society, telling the truth is a revolutionary act.
Nooz Buffet 