The Push – part-uno

The push, is it real?  Easily identified, physical contact can and does happen, generally speaking of course, but what about the non-physical push?

The push that’s subtle, so subtle in fact, it’s a matter of personal feel.  Have you ever walked into a room or a store with a smile on your face and happiness in your heart only to have it washed away?  Did you ever arrive at a party or social gathering and think to yourself, man, something is just off here?

It’s a matter of personal opinion I guess, and the truth is that we really can’t control the vibe.  We can however, stay or go.  If we stay, we can do our best to enjoy ourselves, and provide comfort for those around us.

In my opinion, I do think we have an instinctual reaction to the atmosphere around us, and I don’t think we’re necessarily right or wrong for how we feel at certain events, around certain people, or in certain places.

If you show up somewhere and think it feels right, it probably is.  Conversely, if it doesn’t feel right, then more than likely you’re feeling not so safe, maybe uncomfortable, or rushed.  To get the most out of these experiences, and remember we need experiences, especially new ones and those where we’re stepping out of our comfort zones, we’re going to have to stick it out and ignore our feelings.

The whole situation is really strange, I know.  We’ve always been told to pay attention to our feelings, and if something doesn’t feel right, then it probably isn’t, but now we’re going against the grain.  We’re learning to ignore our feelings of doubt and push through them….

because…

We want to grow right?  We do.  We want spiritual growth don’t we?  We claim to be on a spiritual path, don’t we?

Some of us might be shy.  Some of us might not like being the new guy or girl in the group, and it’s way easier to run off, go home, and say ahh I didn’t like that place, or those people, but if we really want to grow and learn we must stay.

What about aging?  You know what’s interesting?  The aging process is interesting.

As time passes by, we change.  We change internally, externally physically, and mentally.  Our minds change, our feelings change, our thoughts change.  We may become more or less tolerant of certain things.  As all these changes take place, people come and go from our lives, and that’s not a coincidence.  The older you might have more in common with a person the younger you would’ve never given the time of day to.

We move and change our surroundings to accommodate what we enjoy and what we want to see more of.  This is obviously not a coincidence.  We’re actively building our lives.

So you see, change within us happens before we know it because..time flies.  Twenty years could pass, but it doesn’t seem like twenty years to us.  It is though.  You’re a different person, and you haven’t figured it out yet.  You woke up the other day lashing out at everyone around you because you were upset, but you were upset on the surface.  Below the surface is frustration because you’re not yet in alignment with the new you.

In comes the Spiritual Path.  In comes the need for personal time.  In comes the idea or the need for you figure things out.  Why?  It’s only natural.  You’re not who you were twenty years ago.  We know that’s true because we knew who we were, the problem is we haven’t figured out who we are now.  Let the past go.  Yup.  Just let it go, and focus on right now.

Once upon a time you were outgoing, friendly, and you had so many friends or small group of close friends.  Once upon a time everything felt right.  You knew what you wanted, where you wanted to go, and who you wanted to spend your time with.  Parties and social gatherings were awesome.  You had fun.  Leaving was never an option.  LoL, are you kidding.  You were the life of the party.

That was twenty-five, maybe thirty years ago.

Right now, nothing feels right.  You spend most of your time alone.  You feel alone, out of touch, and you’re ready to run back home.

And….you do, but for the last time.