I’m sharing this because it’s a good example of what being in sync with the universe looks like. I lot of people plan according to the planetary cycles, but believe me, it’s not the same thing as living your life naturally and being in sync.
During the last three weeks, I’ve being living without any awareness of the lunar cycle. A couple of weeks ago I signed a contract to do some freelance work with a local publication, and last night, I decided to cover a story for them.
Before I left last to go to the meeting last night, I decided to see where the Moon was. It was in Libra. Libra rules the 7th House, and the seventh house falls under the section, “Awareness of Others”.
Specifically, the seventh house rules, marriages, partnerships, contracts, and known enemies (usually competitors). To sit in on a meeting that I had to listen to speakers for two hours and then interview people for quotes, you couldn’t ask for the Moon to be in a better sign.
The polarity between the first and the seventh house deals with awareness of the self and awareness of the other. Through interaction with the other, we learn about ourselves.
If you have something planned or scheduled, just take a peak and see where the Moon is. If there are direct correlations between what you have going on and the Moon’s placement, then you’re in the right place at the right time. The blessing is naturally bestowed to you.
This evening, the Moon will be full, culminating in the astrological sign, Leo. Leo is a fixed fire sign, and there is a tendency involved here to become a little overbearing, outspoken, and selfish.
Take some time to think about your words before you decide to speak, and I know that’s easier said than done, but since this moon cycle began in Capricorn, we’re reminded that what comes out of our mouths now during an emotional outburst or moment of venting could be something we regret later.
Leo is a sign of love, creativity, and personal expression. It’s natural home is in the 5th House, which means short-term pleasures are ruled by the heart of the Lion. Spend time with your significant other, loved ones, and friends. Whatever you enjoy during now, or whatever it is that brings you great pleasure, dive on in! Enjoy yourself.
Subconsciously, below the surface, we have thoughts pertaining to personal expression. In some areas of our lives, we’re looking for a breakout. For something, even if it’s just a little appreciation, we want to be recognized and noticed. There’s nothing wrong with that.
You should always mediate on the nights of new and full moons, so it wouldn’t hurt to take a moment to go within. The full moon will bring you all the details you need, so, if you can figure out what it is your seeking recognition for, you can start making plans and preparing for the new moon cycle coming up on the 9th of February.
This Thursday evening, pending clear skies, we should see a big beautiful Moon culminating in the astrological sign of the Lion, Leo.
This current Moon cycle began on January 11th, (111) in Capricorn, and Capricorn is home in the 10th House, the “House of Career and Our Standing With the Public.” The culmination we see and feel now involves the relationship between the manifestations of 10th House energy as they relate to love and creativity.
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I wanted to open this post with Figure 96 from Zecharia Stichin’s book, the 12th Planet to remind everyone that we’re dealing with time in the thousands of years.
Our history, human history on earth, has either been forgotten over time, or it has purposely been kept hidden from us. We rarely take a second to think that we as humans, are the species or the race of beings that live here on earth. This is our planet, yet we know nothing about the planet, our place in the universe, or our very own origin.
It seems like we pay a lot of tax money that goes towards funding projects that can produce the answers to those questions, but the discovery, if any, is always withheld for some reason.
Below, are the first two pages from chapter two in Glen Sanderfur’s book, Lives of the Master;
The fourth paragraph on the second page is the one I’m focusing on currently. It starts with, “As ages passed, many souls began to experiment with God’s creation..”
According to Edgar Cayce, we now know Atlantis was around during the formation of the Earth, and that powerful civilization was said to have reigned from approximately 200,000 BC to 10,700 BC.
This brings us to that all important Cusp between Virgo and Leo. I showed you guys that my nodal axis is located there.
12,724 years ago, which is also 10,700 BC, Atlantis was destroyed by a global flood. It was a catastrophic event brought on by themselves, and we learn that in many sources.
10,700 BC is just over that cusp on the LEO side, approximately where my north node is located. So, this affected us in two ways. One, it was then end of the first 13,000 years in the Grand Cycle. And, two, as the Cosmic Night began, it did so with an earth-shattering cataclysm.
So, we had been through many Grand Cycles. Remember, Atlanteans ruled the earth since 200,000 BC.
Below, I included two pages from Edgar Cayce’s book, Edgar Cayce Modern Prophet, so you can read some of what I’ve been looking at.
I think we’re finally starting to put the true story together.
A lot of people today are searching for that antediluvian wisdom because all of that knowledge was pre-flood. The reason why there are pyramids all over the world is because those who survived the flood attempted to save their knowledge.
The Atlanteans had no boundaries when it came to creation and God’s power to create. They had six senses not five and they had the ability to tamper the with creative process here on earth. In doing so, they forgot about the divine spark or the piece of God within them and lost their way home.
That’s why I said, we’re so far from the truth now that speaking it sounds crazy. Yet, we ask ourselves, “Isn’t there more to life than this?” We have a sense though.
The power involves solar energy, harmonics, energy, vibration, and frequency, and I suppose the Designer who created all of this has figured out way to use time and cycles of time to prevent the fast release of such knowledge, or that knowledge falling into the wrong hands.
Either way, I do believe we all have a role to play in this story, and even if we didn’t, it would be nice to finally possess the truth. We’re getting there.
Below is another two pages from the Edgar Cayce book in which he discusses why we don’t remember living before;
As I continue waking up and putting all the pieces of this story together, the more I’ll be able to help to people who need my help because I’ll be in the right place at the right time.
I made another miraculous connection between what Cayce just said above, and the place of my ascendant. They say your ascendant provides much previous life information that supposed to help you on your journey in life.
If your ascendant is like mine, within the first 10 ten degrees of Aquarius, then..
When most of us use astrology to find the position of our natal sun, we use a tropical/geocentric model. According to the tropical/geocentric model, my Sun is on the 18th degree of Aquarius in the 7th House.
I always knew the actual positions of the planets and luminaries was different in “real life”. So, we have astrology, the system man created, and we have astronomy, which is the actual observation and tracking of planetary bodies.
If you want to know what sign you really are, you can pick the geocentric/sidereal model. Sidereal will give you the actual positions as they appear in the sky from our view here on earth.
Using the tropical/sidereal model, I learned my natal Sun was on the 23rd degree of Capricorn, and that’s what eventually led me to Adam.
How?
Well, according to the tropical/geocentric model, I was an Aquarius with my Sun on the 18th degree of the 7th House, but the sidereal model revealed that I was a Capricorn with my Sun on the 23rd degree.
All I had to do was see, when in 2024, would the sun reach the 23rd degree of Capricorn. On January 8th, I saw the Sun would reach the 23rd degree of Capricorn on the 13th of January, and on the 14th, it would reach the exact degree.
When I went to Sanderfur’s book again, I saw Adam in chapter five. The first thing that caught my eye was the biblical verse from Revelation 22:13, because the numerology for NOOZ was 1, 2, 2, 13 (22:13). This is when I also realized the numerology for NOOZ was the opposite for MOON, (13, 2, 2, 1), and when I did the numerology for Adam, I saw that it was 1,4,1,4 or 14 14 (as in the 14th).
When I connected MOON and NOOZ that’s when I also connected the Moon to lunar astrology and lunar mansions.
In the last article I posted, I included a picture with the passage from the chapter with Hermes, which included a mention about mansions.
Also, I give you this;
John Chapter 14
In my Father’s house are many mansions: if it were not so, I would have told you. I go to prepare a place for you.
When he says my Father’s house, he’s referring to the sky. And in the sky, there are many mansions set for the passage of the Moon.
What does all this mean?
When God created souls, the first soul he created was the master soul, but as time went on, God’s souls forgot about him and how to get back to him. The mission of the Master Soul, who eventually incarnated as Jesus and began as Amilius then Adam, was to help humanity, or the souls encased in human form, find their way back to the Father.
(This is the goal of Chiron. Chiron is supposed to be used as the bridge or the way back to life leading us from Saturn/Form/Death to the outer planets. Electro (Uranus) Magnetic (Neptune) is what the Galactic Center Admits. Uranus is Life/electricity, Neptune is Spirituality, and Pluto is intense emotions or the astral plane. All three outer planets are what make up the soul.)
So, our salvation, is being born with consciousness. Jesus’s purpose was to raise the consciousness within humanity before our shift into to light half of the Grand Cycle so we could shift with Earth. If you’re born with full awareness concerning the life you just lived, then you can just pick up and continue without repeating mistakes of the past.
I’m aiding in this.
The Master Soul that was within Jesus was with the creator since the beginning. The Master Soul assisted God during Genesis.
That’s why Jesus said:
Jesus answered and said unto them, Destroy this temple, and in three days I will raise it up.
The less conscious people at that time were talking about the actual building, but Jesus was talking about the Temple within.
Interestingly enough, the first three days of creation takes place in Genesis Chapter 1 verse 1 through 13!
Not only that but January is the first month of the year, and Genesis is the first book of the Old Testament. January has 31 days and Genesis has 31 verses.
When Jesus said that, the response he got was this:
20“This temple took forty-six years to build,” the Jews replied, “and You are going to raise it up in three days?”…
It takes Chiron approximately 50 years to make orbit. And I showed you my chart and how Chiron is at the top of what appears to be a house. In approximately 50 years, Chiron will will have officially retraced the holographic blueprints in my chart to make that house design. Here we are, 44 years later, and we’re almost at that point in Taurus.
I wanted to end this by telling you Pluto, represents the evolutionary journey of your soul. Pluto takes about 248 years to orbit the zodiac, but 1 Plutonian day is equal to 6.387 earth days. If earth and everything in it was created in 6 days and God rested on the 7th, then that means God had time to do both in 1 Plutonian day.
We often associate the splitting of the ATOM with the discovery of Planet Planet Pluto in 1930 and nuclear power, but know this..
Adam was the first soul God put on earth, and to give companionship to that soul, he divided the soul in half. One part entered the male half as Adam, and the other part entered the female half as Eve. They were meant to work together as TWIN FLAMES during their earthly experience. And what I just learned from Edgar Cayce was that the Atlantean Civilization had nuclear power on earth 200,000 years ago.
Last summer, I parked my car in a small parking lot. It was late, or early in the morning, I had just gotten off from work. It was almost 3 AM. So, I parked my car, and as I was slowly reclining my electric driver seat, I noticed this scary looking tree right in front of my car. It was the last thing I saw before falling asleep.
When I opened my eyes again, I was dreaming, but I didn’t know that immediately. I was laying back in the driver seat in my car starring at the tree, so, as far as I was concerned, I was still awake starring at the tree, but I had in fact, fallen asleep.
In the dream, I woke up as I had fallen asleep-in my car, in the same parking lot, and facing the same tree. It was hard to discern the difference between the real world and the dream world because everything was the same.
With the exception of..
Standing outside of my car and looking at me through the driver side window, was a man with snow white hair. He scared me so much that I woke up out of my dream. I woke up breathing heavy and I was scared, not only that, but I was looking at that scary tree again. It was raining outside now too, really hard, and there was thunder and lightening.
I often wondered if the man in my dream was the person described in Revelations 12: 12-14.
Nooz Buffet was my creation six years ago, and I just saw the numerology for the word NOOZ. 1,2, 2, 13
The numerology translates to, For the Healing of the Nations, Revelations 22:13 “I am the Alpha and Omega, the first and the last the beginning and the end.
I think I’m starting to finally make some progress with the topic of reincarnation, and in one of the last articles I wrote, I mentioned Glen Sanderfur’s book, Lives of the Master, The rest of the Jesus Story.
The beauty of that book is that through the life of Jesus, we get to see something that holds true for us as well. You have to think of it this way, “One soul, many lives.”
You possess a soul that’s on a journey, and the life you’re living currently is another opportunity for that soul to learn and grow. Over the course of many incarnations, your soul evolves to completeness, and when you put the whole story together from Sanderfur’s book, that’s what we learn about the life of Jesus and the soul he possessed.
Also from Sanderfur’s book:
This is the beginning of chapter seven in that book, and if you look closely, you see the word mansions. ”The Soul, passeth from form to form; and the mansions of her pilgrimage are manifold.”
We just learned recently that the Moon knows who we truly are, and the connection is within lunar astrology. In lunar astrology, the sky is divided into 27 or 28 mansions to track the passage of the Moon.
In case you’re wondering, Hermes Trismegistus was another individual who housed the Master Soul that incarnated through the man we knew as Jesus.
By back tracking through the astrological ages, we realize, that all the information we had since the beginning of our creation concerning the creation and encasement of souls was lost with the sinking of Atlantis. All the cycles of reincarnation have been lost. Basically, I’ve been on a recovery mission.
Two months ago I had another dream. I was in the basement of my house trying to climb out of a basement window. But because of the inclined grade of the street outside of the window, I couldn’t get out.
If you can imagine, the sidewalk outside of a window is really close to the window itself, and because it’s angled uphill, it makes it impossible to climb out of the window. I awoke from that dream because I couldn’t get outside the window.
Then, I awoke from a similar dream on the 16th of this month. In the dream I was at a friend’s house I went to high school with. When he let me in, a whole lot of people followed me in. He walked me down to his basement, and there was this amazing bar and lounge area stretching as far as I could see on both ends. At the bar there was a good looking woman dressed in all-white.
I sat at the bar and explained how I got there. I told her I was digging in the kitchen above and fell through the floor.
Then, I left the bar to use the bathroom, but when I was done using the bathroom, I was stuck in a small square room. The only way out was through a window. This time, I climbed out of the basement window. The street outside was bright and sunny, and there was a black kid in the street moving really fast, but he was floating-he wasn’t in a car. We looked at one another and went out separate ways.
When I woke up from that dream it was almost 2:30 AM. I got my phone and put on an old Art Bell podcast. In that particular episode, he just happened to be interviewing a man named Gregory Paxson about Past Life Regression-Of all topics.
And Gregory Paxson in that episode says that adjusting to the light in the afterlife is like coming up out of a basement.
I thought it was interesting that I woke up from that dream, and put that episode on that dealt with Past life regression, and the guest is talking about coming out of a basement.
I’ve been doing a good job with connecting the bible, and the story of God, Souls, and reincarnation with astrology.
So, I want to leave you with this because I think it can really help you. God is love, and God has given you free will. Free will and love is represented by Leo in your chart. Wherever you find Leo in your chart, just remind yourself that God will love you no matter what you decide to do. It’s your choice.
The bottom half of the chart, the third and the fourth houses, are best imagined as the root system of the Tree of Life. The powerful trunk of the Tree of Life grounding earth and sky is on the line of the IC and Midheaven. As we move into the fourth house, we are moving into the deepest experiences in a given incarnation. We move with all of the experiences of the houses into the deep womb of the fourth house, and it is there that we find out who we really are. Only the silvery Earth satellite screening all perceptions outside Earth, the Moon, knows who we really are
Barbara Hand Clow
My Moon (tropical/geocentric) 2 degrees Scorpio 4th House. According to Barbara Hand Clow, the fourth house is where we find out who we truly are, and the Moon knows.
My Moon is in the 4th House. My Moon is opposite Chiron (9 degrees Taurus 10th House). According to Clow, Moon opposite Chiron is the highest manifestation of the alchemized moon.
I have the highest manifestation of the alchemized Moon.
The Sabian Symbol for Chiron (9degrees Taurus) is, “A fully decorated Christmas Tree”.
According to Astro Seek dot com, the Lunar Mansion Astrology reading for Moon 2 degrees Scorpio and tropical zodiac is,
17
Mubine Al-Iklil
25°42’ – 08°34’
The Clarifier, the evident (The nearest heaven. Sphere of The Moon, prophet Adam)
If I change it to Sidereal it reads
15
Musawwir Al-Ghafr
00°00’ – 12°51’
The form giver, the image (The fifth heaven. Sphere of Venus, prophet Joseph)
Adam and Joseph according to Astro-seek .com.
Venus is exalted in my chart on the 27th degree of Pisces in the 9th House.
Francis Joseph LaManna, is my name, but look closely.
is Joseph LaM = Joseph in Islam.
Venus exalted on the 27th degree of Pisces in the 9th House.
My birth date is February 7, 1980. 2/7/1980 2 month 7 day (1980) 1+9+8+0= 27 2+7 = 9
2 7 9. The orbital period of the Moon is 27 days.
The Oculus numerology for Moon is, MOON 13, 2, 2, 1. 13+2+2+1=18 and 1+8=9.
Moon = 9. The numerology for NOOZ happens to be the exact opposite.
NOOZ, 1, 2, 2, 13. 1+2+2+13=18 and 1+8=9.
Revelation 22:13. I (Jesus) am the alpha and the omega, the first and the last, the beginning and the end.
In Glen Sanderfur’s book, Lives of the Master, The Rest of The Jesus Story, Joseph is the 9th chapter.
My Sun is on 18 degrees Aquarius in the 7th House according to the tropical/geocentric model. But the Sidereal tells me on the on the 7th of February in 1980, the Sun was really on the 23rd degree of Capricorn.
The Sun will be on the 23rd Degree of Capricorn this Saturday, January 14, 2024.
Revelation 22:13. I (Jesus) am the alpha and the omega, the first and the last, the beginning and the end.
According to Oculus 13, the numerology for JESUS is, 10, 5, 6, 8, 6.
10 56 86 or if you reduce down by adding each set, 1 11 14. 111 is today’s date, January 11th. And on the 14th the Sun will be on the 23rd degree of Capricorn, where it was in my sidereal birth chart.
10+5+6+8+6=35 and 5+3 = 8.
8 is the number most used to represent Jesus, and 8 sideways is the infinity symbol.
The lucky numbers for Pisces are 2 and 6 (2+6)= 8.
The lucky numbers for Aquarius are 1 and 7 (1+7)=8.
The lucky numbers for Leo are 8 and 9 (8+9) = 17 (1+7) = 8.
The lucky numbers for Virgo are 5 and 3 (5+3) = 8.
My ascendant and descendent axis is 1 degree 43 inches (143) is I (1)love(4) You(3).
Ascendant 1 degree 43 inches Leo, and my descendant is 1 degree 43 inches Aquarius.
The ascendant/descendant connects the 1st and 7th houses. Aquarius number 1 and 7 equal 8 (Jesus) and Leo numbers 8 and 9 equal 17, (house 1 and 7) and 1 plus 7 equals 8 (Jesus).
My nodal axis is 29 degrees Leo, North Node, and 29 degrees Aquarius, South Node. My nodal axis sits right in the middle of Leo (8) and Virgo (8) (North Node) and Pisces (8) and Aquarius (8).
Not only do all the signs that border my nodal axis have lucky numbers that equal 8, which is Jesus’s number popularly and according to my numerology, but the borders between Pisces and Aquarius and Leo and Virgo are where the line of time is or the marker (first and last beginning and end, alpha and omega) for the Great Year.
My South Node lines up with the beginning of this current 26,000 year astrological Great Year, which began in 23,820 BC in Aquarius! My north node lines up with the beginning of the Age of Leo, which was 10,860 BC!
My nodal axis aligns perfectly dividing the Great Year in half, two periods of roughly 13,000 years. The Great Year began in Aquarius right where my South Node is conjunct Mercury (Thoth/Hermes) on the zero degree of Pisces! And, my north node is conjunct the start Regulus (Lion’s Heart, Prince, King) 29 degrees Leo, and MakeMake (Polynesian Creator God) 24 degrees Leo, which was right around the time of Noah’s Flood, 10,860 BC.
According to Clow, “The Lunar Nodes explicate the karmic path in a natal chart. The North Node is the chosen purpose for this lifetime, while the south node reveals significant past life information for this lifetime.” Incredible!
She uses Martin Schulman’s book titled, Karmic Astrology, The Moon’s Nodes and Reincarnation!
So the nodal axis represents our karmic path and it provides information about past lives and our chosen purpose for this life.
Mercury located on the zero degree of Pisces bordering Aquarius, shows that Mercury/Thoth/Hermes is in a position where the Great Year began and where it will end and begin again in 2100 AD.
According to Glen Sanderfur’s book, Lives of the Master, The Rest of The Jesus Story, Jesus, Hermes, Adam, and Joseph all housed the same soul. It was about the maturation, evolution, and journey of the soul. Different people, same soul.
He writes about each life from the beginning of creation to show how the master soul worked out it’s Karma and evolved, and it’s final lesson was learned through the life of Jesus.
Amilius-the first begotten of the Father that came in the Atlantean land and was led in the ways of selfishness.
ADAM- The numerology for ADAM is, 1, 4, 1, 13. or 1 4 14 because 1 and 3 can be added to equal 4. 14 14. January 14, 2024, the sun will be on the 23rd degree of Capricorn.
Enoch,
Hermes (10,500 BC in Egypt, that’s just beyond that Virgo Leo border where I have Regulus, North Node, MakeMAke, and Mercury conjunct the South Node at the opposite end)
Melchizedek
Joseph- In addition to what I showed above, Messianic Prophecy in Numbers 24:17:
I see Him, but not now;
I behold him, but not nigh:
a star shall come forth out of Jacob,
and a scepter shall rise out of Israel…
A man named Jacob just called me about a job offer, and the numbers above, 24:17, 2 and 4 are the numbers for Scorpio, and 1 and 7 are the numbers for Aquarius. My Moon is in Scorpio and my sun is in Aquarius (tropical/geocentric).
Joshua- the warrior who led the Israelites into the Promised Land. On January 14, 2024, when the sun reaches the 23rd degree of Capricorn (23 degrees Capricorn is Sidereal natal sun position), the Sabian Symbol reads, RECONCILIATION, two awards for bravery in war.
Also, on the 14th, Pluto will conjunct the Sun on the 29th degree of Pluto. The Sabian Symbol there reads, MASTERY, A woman reading tea leaves. That’s divination, basically what I’m doing right now.
Asaph
Jeshua of Jerusalem in 515 BC. (Jerusalem/Salem Witch trials) Did the Master Soul reincarnate here in the United States?
Zend
Jesus
Those were all the people who lived and housed the master soul.
Here’s one version of my chart. Chiron at the peak of that pentagon or what looks like a house, or a house of God. In a few more years Chiron will complete it’s first orbit and that house will be complete as he returns to the 9th degree of Taurus (A fully decorated Christmas Tree). He’s conjunct the asteroid Vesta, the sacred flame, but what’s hidden is that Zend, one of the people who housed the Master Soul according to Sanderfur, started a religion called Zoroastrianism, and their Bible was called the Zend Avesta.
Taken everything into consideration that I just wrote about, I do believe that I was all those people. I believe that I now house the Master Soul, and this will go on and on and on. There’s just too many coincidences to dismiss this. Given the experiences I’ve had, the things I’ve seen, and the astrology and numerology to provide supporting details, I think my assumptions are correct.
All the numbers surrounding my nodal axis, the karmic axis of reincarnation, all equal 8. That’s Jesus and that’s infinity. And that axis splits the light half of the Grand Cycle from the dark half of the Grand Cycle.
If you have a “friend” in your life who puts you down, get rid of them.
If they attack your character, get rid of them.
I let someone into my life who has made a habit out of trying to convince me that I have a mental disorder. This person doesn’t understand me, doesn’t listen to me, and overpowers me every time I speak.
Tonight, I blocked this persons phone number, and I’m not looking back.
Steer clear of the people who claim to know what’s best for you. No one knows you better than you know yourself, and you may or may not realize that, but it’s true.
I made this person a list of positive affirmations, and she threw it out and told me I was conceited. Positive affirmations are how we reprogram negative thought patterns. They’re are meant to help us love ourselves, build self-confidence, and think more positively.
I wrote that list with heart and soul, and that’s how she responded. She threw it out.
I am an individual.
I am capable of making decisions for myself.
I am a critical thinker and a problem solver.
I love myself.
The truth is that everything starts with you. We’re all unique and special in our own way, and I don’t feel one ounce of guilt or shame for making Francis LaManna number one. That’s not self-centered or conceited.
As a single adult without children who’s turning 44 this year, I’ve learned some things about life. No one is going to take care of you. You have to make yourself a priority.
There are lots of people around you who are scared, and because they’re scared, they need lots of things. They’re needy. They need someone to relax them, someone who can build them up and tell them everything is going to be okay, and they need constant reassurance.
Think about what you were like when you woke up scared from a nightmare when you were a child. You called for mommy and daddy. You ran to them.
The problem with adults who live in fear is that they’re draining. They’re a black hole that sucks up all the laughter, good vibes, and positivity around them. If you’ve ever watched The Celestine Prophecy, then you’ll understand this.
When people are afraid or live in fear, they can become envious and jealous of someone who isn’t. They may act irrationally, become aggressive, and attack when their needs aren’t met or they encounter something they don’t understand. To them, it seems like everything comes easy to the strong individual, and they envy them for that.
Life is about timing, and with timing comes opportunities. The less fearful you are, the more opportunities you’ll have. It’s that simple.
Everyday, we’re exposed to narratives and news stories that are driven by fear. They’re saturated with death and violence, and they’re designed to control you. If you’re living in fear, then they’ve already won. They control you, and you’re controlled by your fear, and because of that, you’re missing out on opportunities and not living your life.
Eventually, your fear will turn into anger because you’re missing opportunities and not living your life, and it is at that point that you, yourself, will become a controller.
So, you begin to control everyone and everything around you.
I forgive you.
I forgive you for judging me, for not listening to me, for overpowering me when I tried to speak, for telling me I was crazy, for telling me I was mental, for telling me no, don’t, stop, and you can’t. I forgive you for not having the confidence in me that I had in myself. I forgive you for ignoring me and for not believing me. I forgive you for lying.
I forgive you for trying to control me.
Readers and subscribers, I ask that you hold yourself accountable for your actions and behaviors. I ask that you be honest with yourself, and I want you to know that you have the power to change if you don’t like the person you’ve become.
You can destroy good relationships and the love someone has for you by trying to control them.
Don’t be a controller.
Don’t listen to them.
No one is going to take care of you, so it’s necessary for you to make yourself a priority. Limit the resources and time you give anyone who calls you self-centered or conceited for doing so.
And, if I, because of my own fears, tried to control you, I do apologize.
25°42’ – 
08°34’
Nooz Buffet 