So, I posted an article today asking for donations to help me get to $2,000.

And then, I thought about that for a little bit, and I said to myself, “Not counting myself, I have 285 followers. If each follower gave $7.25, I would have $2,066.25.”

And then I laughed because it sounds so simple. If I could get each follower to give just $7.25, I could reach my goal.

The day went on, and I wrote another article titled, Teenagers, Listen Up. After I wrote that article, I realized this:

Holding fast to what you have and not letting anyone snatch your crown means to hold on to your faith, and to not let anyone come between you and your pursuit to obtain an open crown in preparation for Chiron’s return at 50 years old.

That was a revelation, and I know a lot of people aren’t ready for this yet, but you will be. I’m just planting the seed.

This is so important because your ability to pass through these doors/gates/stages/levels, or whatever else you want to call them, really dictates when the process of dying begins in your body.

If you align this process with astrology, the astrological cycles of certain planets reveal what’s going on. I’ll let you read that for yourself.

The four pages I’ve provided are from the book, Chiron rainbow bridge between the inner and outer planets, and it was written by, Barbara Hand Clow.

Those pages get into detail about this process, and astrologically speaking, the most important transits occur around 29 years, that’s when Saturn completes its first orbit. The second transit occurs between 40 and 42 years, that’s when Uranus moves into opposition of itself and aligns directly across (180 degrees) from where it was when you were born. The third transit is when Chiron makes its first full orbit and comes back to where it was when you were born. That’s about 50 to 51 years.

I posted the last picture many times before so you can SEE it. Now, I haven’t provided any of the details yet concerning the unfolding of this process throughout one’s life, but these are the key dates that you’re supposed to be prepared for. The important thing to remember is that the work on the physical, mental, and emotional bodies or planes is supposed to be done in preparation for your Chiron/CHRIST return.

Did you get that? Chiron/Christ return? Okay, you see where this is going.

The top of your head is known as the crown of your head. So the crown chakra is the energy center/vortex at the top of your head. Nobody, can take your crown, but they can close it. And you need it open for your Chiron/Christ return to reap whatever he has for you.

Okay, now, remember I posted on here on 3/11/2024, https://noozbuffet.com/2024/03/11/breaking-news-the-self-awareness-of-paramahansa-yogananda/.

Well, today, as I remind you of that and you keep in mind what you’re reading now, I turn your attention to Revelations 3:11. “I am coming soon; hold fast to what have, so that no one may seize your crown.“

I highlighted SEIZE YOUR CROWN. Yes, seize could be defined as taking something by force, but you don’t have a crown on your head that anyone could take!

However, there’s another definition for the word seize when it’s used as a verb. When something like an engine seizes up, that means it stops working. Dictonary.com provides these two definitions:

1. to have moving parts bind and stop moving as a result of excessive pressure, temperature, or friction (usually followed by up ):The engine seized up from cold.
2. to have a seizure, as of epilepsy:He seized for about five minutes and then lost consciousness

The Crown Chakra is an energy center, like every other chakra center, it’s a spinning vortex. I told you earlier that no one could take your crown, but they can close it. Excessive pressure, temperature, friction, can bind it up and stop it from spinning. That means excessive arguing, fighting, rage, and all of the other emotions you’re supposed to fix by the time Uranus moves into opposition.

If you look at the second definition you will understand what happens when it closes. YOU LOSE CONSCIOUSNESS! Translate that into metaphysical language. You’re not going to pass out your going to lose, until it’s reopened, you’re creative energy, awareness, and the consciousness you spent your lifetime raising. You’re going to miss the opportunity or the gift that Chiron/Christ has for you.

Didn’t you ever notice how the hair on the crown of your head spirals out from a center point? Well.. Do you think it’s by chance that certain religions cover the crown portion of the head? No.

So, getting back to my point, The important thing to remember is that the work on the physical, mental, and emotional bodies or planes is supposed to be done in preparation for your Chiron/CHRIST return.

By 42, if you’ve done the work, all the chakras centers are supposed to be open, and the kundalini energy is supposed to be moving up the spine through the crown chakra and beyond. That also means that you’re totally alive and death has not yet set in.

If you continue to increase your vibration faster and faster then you’ll be like?

Elijah. Some people fell to their knees when they met the Lord, and others walked with him.

Enoch walked with God, but Elijah was taken up in a whirlwind!

A whirlwind! Notice how there are three planetary symbols at the top. Pluto, Uranus, and Neptune represent the soul/the trinity.

Elijah won, like a handful of others. What is the point of all this? What’s this all about?

Well, we all have a special mission, but this is really about changing hologram. I’m going to get into what the hologram is, but if you alter consciousness, you can evolve the hologram. That’s why you must hold on to your crown. If it seizes, you lose consciousness.

According to Clow, the astrological chart describes the energy field that results in a hologram inserted into incarnation. The hologram is a unified field of consciousness which maps the process of the soul’s formation into matter from birth to death.

Think of it as a movie. You’re the star, and you’re creating your life actively. The movie begins when you’re born, and it ends when you die. Everything that happens between those two points, creates the hologram. Death is actually the completion of the hologram, but you don’t know that because up until now, you’ve never seen the end of the movie. It was always lights out. And because it was always lights out, and because you never actually saw the ending, you kept coming back here to see what the hell you missed, and in the process, the same movie has been replaying over and over again.

Now, that Chiron was spotted in 1977, we realized that the power was once again available to us here on earth as it was a long long time ago. Chiron gives us the power to wake up out of this movie (gain consciousness and awareness that we’ve been here before), and to do the work that we need to do to raise our vibration so we can change the hologram. We can finally progress and move forward.

Now, the went on for me, and as the day went on after that last post, I left my house and drove to an old parking lot to read and think, and more revelations came to me.

What came to me exactly?

Well, I was thinking about my life and how it seems to be in shambles every 12 years, and I even wrote a long article on here about the Jupiter cycle. I realized that Jupiter has a 12 year orbit, and every time Jupiter gets around Aries I start having rough times financially. Like clockwork it hasn’t failed yet. I looked at my chart to see what was in that area and I saw Eris, which is the planet of strife on the 13th degree of Aries, My part of fortune is on the 15th degree of Aries (the 15th Degree of Aries is Cosmic Consciousness), and both are conjunct my Midheaven on the 17th degree.

Interesting, right?

I don’t really feel like getting into the details of this thought came about, but..

it was the revelation that Times Time and half time is 24, 12, and 6. When I came home, I looked at my bible and I saw that comes from Daniel 7:25.

Remember, in the beginning of this article I said to myself:

“If only 285 people would give me $7.25, I would have enough to pay for my car payment and make the necessary repairs to move to a better place.”

$7.25, I guess was given to me, but not in the form of money. It came to me as a revelation concerning times time and half time from the Book of Daniel.

Now, my wheels were spinning! And, I started to think some more, and all these thoughts flashed in my mind. Once I knew the time was 12, and times was 24, and a half time was 6..

I drew this picture and something else made sense..

Now, I know, the spiral I saw in the center of the Sun around 2007 was God showing me TIMES! I was 27 years old, then. The key verses in Daniel are 7:25, 7:26, and 7:27!

As in 25 years old, 26 years old, and 27 years old. I was born on the 7th, so it would be 7th day 25 years old, 7th day 26 years old, and 7th day 27 years old.

Also, this was verification of the process that I’m talking about in this article. When I added 24+12+6 it equals 42! 42 years old is the end of the Uranus opposition!

Times, time, and half time is equivalent to the age when if you’ve done the work, the chakras centers should be open.

Then, my scientific mind started to work, and I was looking at the picture like Oxygen 12, Carbon 6, but that’s where I stopped to write this.

24 years is 8,760 days. 12 years is 4,380 days, and 6 years is 2,190 days. Altogether there is 15,330 days.

I also thought about something else. Christine Breese, the founder of UMS, made a meditation video, and in the meditation video she would refer to her audience as double 0 7 secret agents of love.

That’s 007! If you’re a 007 secret agent of love, then you at least did enough work to open up whatever centers would equate with the times period, which I believe is the Saturn Return.

There are 2 circles in times, 1 in time, and an arc in half time.

Alright my friends, I love you, I appreciate you, and I’m grateful that you visit my site. Hold fast to what you have and hold on to that crown.

I now wish that I’m able to hold those vibrational levels so that my crown never gets seized! You should do the same.

You know what?

My nodal axis runs from the 2nd house to the eighth house. This is a soul lesson that has to do with money and possessions. And it’s funny, how I have no accumulated money after living for 44 years on this earth, and today, I basically beg for $7.25 from each of my followers, and I’m given Daniel 7:25 instead!

I don’t think I’m supposed to have money, and that’s crazy because I love money.

This is Why You’re Told to Hold Fast to What You Have

and Not Let Anyone Snatch Your Crown.

Yesterday, I posted an article about Reiki healing. The system, the establishment, and “science”, has taken a stance against natural remedies, and earth based and hands on healing. They condemn and black ball the individual who believes they, within themselves have the power to heal.

This really isn’t new news to me, but it’s something people should be aware of.

I read a long time ago that certain things and certain methods are used to keep people at the bottom of the pyramid. While I’ve always been aware of these things and methods, I never really understood what humans were being prevented from achieving..

until recently.

Fear is something they use. They don’t use fear directly, it’s used indirectly, or in a passive way. For example, they can make up a story about a certain area or city as being a place of violence and crime, or there might really be crime and violence going on in that place, but it’s not as bad as they drum it up to be.

You may or may not decide to go to this place, but that decision is ultimately yours to make. Some people will go, and some will be afraid to go.

Yesterday, I saw a video on YouTube that was telling people that they would be targets of gang violence if they got a certain tattoo.

In the video, the narrator directly came out and told people not to get a 5-pointed crown because it was too dangerous. Instead, they told everyone to get the closed crown with the cross at the top.

The picture to my left is the crown they told everyone to get.

Why would they tell you this?

Okay, so now I have to go back and tell you what humans are being deterred and sometimes prevented from achieving.

This whole thing, the story I posted about Reiki included, is about the prevention and the determent of individuals from finding the God and the power within themselves. It’s about the determent and the prevention of you manifesting your divinity.

The reason why I titled this posting, Teenagers, Listen Up, is because teenagers are still young enough to grasp and conquer this process I’m about to tell you about.

The picture above is from Barbara Hand Clow’s book, Chiron. In the second paragraph she’s talking about the astrological alignment of Uranus opposite Uranus. It takes Uranus 84 years to make one orbit around the Sun, and most humans won’t live to see their Uranus return, but between the ages of 40 and 42, Uranus will be in a position to where it’s exactly opposite to where it was when you were born. That’s the Uranus opposition.

It takes Chiron 50 years to make one orbit, and if you’ve balanced your karma and transformed the energy within yourself properly at each necessary stage, the chakras are open all the way up the spine. This allows the energy within you to flow from the base of the spine to the top of your head, which is the “crown chakra.”

So, the video that I was talking about is not only terroristic, but it’s indirectly telling you not to strive for the transformation of the energies within yourself.

The truth, however, is this: If you fail to transform the energies within yourself, a closed crown is what you’ll have when you turn 50 years old and Chiron returns, and the cross on top represents the Churches victory over everything and everyone through the crucifixion of Jesus.

The 5-pointed Crown or any crown that’s open with rays represents the open crown and your successful attempt at balancing your karma and transforming your energy.

The video is basically using the threat of gang violence to deter you from getting an open crown tattoo, but there’s a MUCH BIGGER PICTURE HERE THAN YOU GETTING A TATTOO. It’s telling you to be safe, don’t go off on your own, God is in the Church not within you, and get yourself one of those closed crowns with the cross at the top.

We have a lot of work to do.

Because of my stance on political issues and issues pertaining to the pandemic, illegal immigration, and the breech of the United States constitution, my employment opportunities are dwindling.

Please donate. $2,000 will help me catch up on car payments and make some minor repairs so I can travel to a better place.

Thank you so much.

Do you have any idea concerning the importance of this paragraph I found on Wikipedia?

The following paragraph was taken from Wikipedia:

Catholic Church concerns

In March 2009, the Committee on Doctrine of the United States Conference of Catholic Bishops issued the document Guidelines for Evaluating Reiki as an Alternative Therapy, in which they declared that the practice of reiki was based on superstition, being neither truly faith healing nor science-based medicine.^[35] They stated that reiki was incompatible with Christian spirituality since it involved belief in a human power over healing rather than prayer to God,^[36] and that, viewed as a natural means of healing, it lacked scientific credibility.^[37] The 2009 guideline concluded that “since reiki therapy is not compatible with either Christian teaching or scientific evidence, it would be inappropriate for Catholic institutions, such as Catholic health care facilities and retreat centers, or persons representing the Church, such as Catholic chaplains, to promote or to provide support for reiki therapy.”^[35] Since this announcement, some Catholic lay people have continued to practice reiki, but it has been removed from many Catholic hospitals and other institutions.^[38]

WOW!

In the paragraph above, I want you to understand something. The Catholic Church in 2009 took it upon themselves to evaluate Reiki. The audacity, right?

And after their evaluation, they came out and made a declaration to everyone.

We declare Reiki to be based on superstition, and it’s not faith healing nor is it scientific-based medicine. The Catholic Church goes on to say, reiki was incompatible with Christian spirituality since it involved belief in a human power over healing rather than prayer to God.

Conclusion

The Catholic Church attacked the natural healing art of Reiki. The Catholic Church could’ve just came out and said they wanted nothing to do with Reiki, but they took it upon themselves to share their opinion with the world, and tell everyone that it was superstition.

So, basically, the Catholic Church, who is also speaking on behalf of Christianity, is telling you that anything the Catholic Church itself is not involved with or is not science based, is superstition when it comes to natural healing.

That’s fine if the Catholic Church, Catholic Health Care Facilities, and anything else Catholic choses to stay away from Reiki, but why do they need to condemn it?

What is it that makes members of the Catholic Church feel they are closer to God than anyone else on earth? What is their problem with natural healing? What is their problem with earth and earth based healing modalities?

What is their problem with human power and the personal ability you and I have within to heal one another?

This whole thing is like 2,000 years ago. They might as well crucify someone, or burn witches at the stake.

I took this personally even though I grew up Catholic because I’m in the metaphysical field now, and although I’m not planning on specializing in Reiki Healing, I do believe in the myself. I believe in the human, and the human’s power within to heal.

I believe that you and I can wake up one day, and realize that we’re being called out by God to do God’s work, and that might not include a job at the Catholic Church. You and I can be just as close if not closer to God than anyone in the Church, Pope included.

This is the power that was stolen from us, and we do need to take this power back. Every individual needs to take his and her power back. I’m not going to say anything bad about Catholicism or their church, but I am going to tell you that anything is possible.

You don’t need the system, the establishment, or any political or religious institution to tell you what works and what doesn’t, but your mission is to find that out for yourself.

I will however, say this; as natural healing practices catch on and get popular, it’s going to put organized religion and science in a very interesting position.

You already know, from the paragraph above, that Catholicism has taken a stance against natural healing and Reiki specifically. Catholicism has aligned itself with Christianity and both are allies with science. If you go your own way and pursue God on your own, you’ll have science and religion against you.

“I have faith. My faith is deep, my faith is sincere, and my faith is genuine. When it comes to me, I know for a fact, that no human being can be better or closer to God. We’re all humans. If my personal practice produces the ability to heal another by natural means, I know that it’s because of my faith and my belief in God. The Church can never tell me my natural ability to heal naturally, isn’t faith healing. I came back here to be Kingly.”

Francis Joseph LaManna

Good Morning Beloved. Today, I’m going to share some secret wisdom with you, some of which, came to me from my astrological birth chart.

I’m going to begin with the Great Pyramid.

The page below, is page 73 from Glen Sanderfur’s book, “Lives of the Master The Rest of the Jesus Story.”

According to my numerology system, Oculus 13, 73 represents Jesus Christ, that’s why it’s in bold above. Jesus=35 Christ=38 (35+38=73)

It’s important to note that Sanderfur used readings from Edgar Cayce to prove his theories concerning the many incarnations of the Master Soul over time. The bold writing on this page is the Cayce reading.

Now, according to Sanderfur’s research, which was backed by the psychic readings of Edgar Cayce, Hermes Trismegistus, was an incarnation housing the Jesus or Master Soul. Hermes was the architect who designed the Great Pyramid. It was his destiny to help Ra build this sacred temple and Hall for Initiates.

According to Sanderfur’s research, the Great Pyramid was built between 10,490 BC and 10,390 BC.

To bring you up to speed, I’ve included the image below.

The Atlantis civilization lasted for 200,000 years, and their civilization ended when the Flood of Noah destroyed the earth. The Flood of Noah occurred on the cusp line between Virgo and Leo, approximately, 10,860 BC.

If you follow the history here it all makes sense. The Atlantis civilization consisted of several island lands in the Atlantic Ocean, and when their land and everything on it was destroyed by the flood, the survivors scattered. Some when to South America, some to North America, and Some to Africa and Egypt. They ended up on the lands bordering the Atlantic ocean.

The Pyramids in Egypt were built to keep alive the sacred wisdom, the information about the encasements of souls, and traditions of the human race.

If Sanderfur and Cayce are correct, and the construction of the Great Pyramid began in 10,490 BC, than it began during the Astrological Age of Leo. Because remember, we’re are keeping track of the last 26,000 years by using the zodiac.

A Grand Cycle consists of 12 periods of 2,160 years. There are 12 signs in the zodiac, and each sign represents an Astrological Age of 2,160 years. If you multiply 2,160 years by 12 signs it equals 25,920 years, which is the length of time in a Grand Cycle.

If the astrological Age of Leo began in 10,860 BC (12,884 years ago), and the Pyramid construction began in 10,490 BC, then the construction began during the Age of Leo.

When I look at my birth chart, below:

I can see that my nodal axis runs along the 29th degree of Leo in between Virgo and Leo. According to our system of keeping track of time, that cusp between Leo and Virgo represents 10,860 BC. The zero degree of Virgo and the 30th degree of Leo represents 10,860 BC, or the beginning of the Age of Leo since we’re going counter clockwise.

If an Astrological age is 2,160 years, and there are 30 degrees in each zodiac sign, then that means that each degree line represents 72 years! 2,160 years divided 30 degrees equals 72.

If my North Node is Conjunct the Star Regulus on the 29th degree of Leo, then in terms of years, that degree would represent 10,788 BC (10,860-72).

If you look at my chart again, you’ll see the Easter Island God, Make Make, is on the 24th degree of Leo. In terms of years, that’s 10,428 BC (30 degrees – 24 degrees = 6 degrees. 6 degrees x 72 years per degree = 432 years. 10860 BC – 432 years = 10,428 BC.).

Sanderfur’s research backed by the psychic readings of Edgar Cayce told us the construction of the Great Pyramid began in 10,490 BC by Hermes and Ra.

That’s roughly a 62 year difference, which means, according to my chart, the construction of the Great Pyramid coincidentally began on the 24th degree of Leo where Make Make is!

That’s beyond coincidence. Now, here’s where I’m going to share some secrets that were revealed to me. The cusp line between the 1st House of Self and the 2nd House of Possessions and Money, in my chart, begins on the 21st degree of Leo.

That means the 1st House of Self in my chart represents the pyramid itself. That also means that the construction of the Great Pyramid began on the 24th degree of Leo (10,428 BC) and ended on the 21st degree (10,212 BC). The construction of the Great Pyramid took 216 years, and it began on the 24th degree of Leo and ended on the 21st degree, which also completed the 2nd House of Possessions.

What does that leave us with? It leaves us with the Great Pyramid in the 2nd House of Possessions.

Here is another unbelievable crazy coincidence. The 1st House of Self in my chart begins on 1 degree 43 inches. The 2nd House of Possessions begins on the 21st degree 56 inch mark.

If you subtract 21.56 -1.43 that equals 20.13!!!!! The 1st House is 20 degrees and 13 inches.

20 and 13 were the base numbers the Mayans used to keep track of time!!!!!

Also, the numerology system I created, Oculus 13, divides the American alphabet into 2 rows and 13 columns!

What I’ve discovered is that my nodal axis runs along the 29th degree of Leo and Virgo.

That means the North Node represents the beginning of the Age of Leo and the Dark half of the Grand Cycle, and the South Node conjunct Mercury/Hermes on the 0 degree of Pisces represents 25,920 BC or 27,944 years ago or the beginning of the Light Half of this current Grand Cycle, which was also the Age of Aquarius.

That’s what we’re returning to. We’re coming out of the dark, and returning to the light half of the Grand Cycle again, which is also the Age of Aquarius.

I have a bunch of key indicators in my chart.

Now, I realized that Make Make represents the approximate date of the beginning the construction for the Great Pyramid. Which is unbelievably crazy since, according to my chart, the construction was complete by the time the 1st House began.

I’ve never been to the Sphinx or the Pyramids, but I knew something had to be under the paw of the Sphinx because the Star Regulus represents the Sphinx’s Par in the star asterism.

Wouldn’t you all love to know about the 1st House of Self in my chart? Who am I?

HAHAHA, some other time.

The pyramids in South America are connected to the pyramids in Egypt. There is already a one-world governing system in place.

20+13=33! 20 breaks down to 2, which is also the break down of 11. 13 breaks down to 4, which is the breakdown of 22, and when you add 20 and 13 you get 33, which is the other master number. 11, 22, 33. Those are Master numbers we don’t reduce.

Born Roman Catholic, I’ve always celebrated Easter, but I do hope you enjoy this day under the name you call it according to your faith.

Today, we celebrate the resurrection, transfiguration, and reincarnation of our Lord and Savior, Jesus Christ. Please, understand the message of Jesus, “What I do, all men can do.”

As you celebrate the amazing things and miracles preformed by Jesus, just know that Jesus never wanted to be worshipped. He was a messenger, a teacher, a healer, and most importantly, a living testament to the capabilities of our human race.

The Father Loved Jesus so much because Jesus had total control of his life. He had the ability to lay his life down when it was time, no one took it from him.

Today, we celebrate Jesus and his resurrection. He was the master of time and a master of the process of ascension.

Happy Easter

Well, this isn’t traditional, it’s not safe, and it’s definitely not something commonly done. After considering my current situation, which you can read about in my last two posts, an interesting thought came to mind.

As crazy as this sounds, it makes perfect sense from an intuitive and divinely guided perspective. The truth is, what’s right for you might not be right for everyone else, and that’s the point.

All things considered; I’ve just been fired from a part-time job that pays $10.50 per hour, I’m probably now going to lose my car and my cell phone, I have no money, I’m in debt, I haven’t been on vacation since 2001, I’m 44, and I’m not going to live forever.

Taking a step back is the last thing you’d advise me to do, but it’s time. So, I decided to walk, hitchhike, and bicycle my way around the country seeing all the places and things I’ve never been able to see.

I’m calling it the Poor Tour, and if my phone doesn’t get turned off, I’ll update this site about my whereabouts.

I just wanted to put this on record in case anyone cares. I know people will think I’m lying, and some of you might even think I’m crazy, but this evening, on 3/11/2024, I realized that I am Paramahansa Yogananda.

I thought about traveling to see the body, but I don’t know.

The date today is definitely interesting with Easter coming up (resurrection), but I wanted to tell everyone that the purpose of our two lives combined, from 1893, up until today, 3/11/2024, was to prove that ascension is real, mastering time is real, reincarnation is real, and the journey of the soul is real. If it wasn’t done this way then no one would’ve ever believed in reincarnation, because not many people remember.

In my life now, I’m Francis Joseph LaManna. With Easter (resurrection) coming up at the end of this month on, 3/31/2024, I don’t believe there was going to be an actual resurrection, but rather an awakening into the self-realization of who I am.

2024-1893= 1 3 1.

Easter is on 3 3 1

Today’s date 3 1 1

I did mediate last night, and I did ask to be shown the Heart Space. This morning I went for a walk at my local park and I asked Mother Earth for guidance and to open up a path for me. This evening, I’m sharing my revelation.

Yogananda birth date: 1 /5/ 1893 the numerology is, 1+5+1+8+9+3 = 27 or 9

Yogananda death date: 3/7/ 1952, the numerology is, 3+7+1+9+5+2 = 27 or 9

My Birth date: 2 /7/ 1980, the numerology is, 2+7+1+9+8+0 = 27 or 9

Notice, I was born on the same day he died, 7 and 7.

He was born under the astrological sign, Capricorn, on the 17th degree, he died with his sun on the 17degree of Pisces, and I was born under the sign in between, Aquarius, on the 18th degree.

There are 20 letters total in my name, Francis Joseph LaManna.

There are 20 letters total in his name, Paramahansa Yogananda.

There are 20 left until Easter Sunday.

Yogananda rhymes with LaManna.

That’s all I’m going to reveal right now concerning numerology and astrology.

I really learned a lesson today.

I met someone three years ago who said she was ready for a serious relationship. And every time I showed her I was serious she would back out.

On top of that, she never invited me over to spend time with her and her children. She always invited me over late at night, so, that’s the relationship we had. We were sex buddies, I guess.

Despite the limited time I had to spend with her, I remained faithful. Part of me said let her go and the other side said maybe this will work out. So, I hung in there, and she slept around, dated other guys, and continued to keep her profile up on the dating site.

She would get videos and pictures of other guys sent to her all day, and I never said anything about it. Then she started yelling at me one day telling me to stop sending her dirty pictures and to stop talking dirty to her during the day.

That wasn’t me. LOl, Umm, excuse me, I think you have me mixed up with your buddies on your dating site.

Anyway, I continued talking to her despite the many and numerous reasons that kept popping up for why I should let her go.

I loved her, I loved her despite the fact that she had three or four different baby fathers and many children.

I was always positive and optimistic about our relationship, and I was constantly thinking about ways I could pick her up and make her happy.

Then there was the money thing. For the first two years we talked, she didn’t have enough money to buy a pack of cigarettes. When I would see her she would ask me to pick up cigarettes and wine before I came. So, I would.

Then she moved to a nicer bigger home, and all of a sudden she had lots of money and offered to take care of me. Things keep getting weird and nothing ever made sense.

She kept inviting me over later at night and we would have sex. Then recently, she invited me over and I was too tired. It was midnight, and I had work the next day.

So, she said okay, well, if you can’t come over, talk to me dirty over text. So, I did. Then she asked me to send her a picture of my dick. I’ve been talking to this woman and sleeping with her for almost three years, but I told her no. I decided not to send her a picture of my dick because I remember her telling me a story of how her ex husband sent her a dick picture and she called the cops on him.

So, I said no, I won’t send you a picture of my dick, but I’ll send you a picture of someone else’s dick. She agreed and laughed, so googled the word dick, and I sent her pictures of random dicks. Soon after she was cumming.

Well, three days later she’s texting me saying there’s something wrong with me, and how could I send her those pictures.

ARE YOU KIDDING ME? You asked me to send them!

LOL, I can’t even believe it. I mean seriously, grow up. I never met a more deceitful and manipulative person. Do you know how many pictures she sent me of herself with her legs wide open and of her ass? I never told her she had something wrong with her, and I never acted like she sent those in a way that was forceful or inappropriate. And I never asked her to send them nor did she ask my permission.

I’m a 44 year old man and she’s almost 50. I can’t believe her behavior.

Anyway, the lesson here is that if you’re getting the feeling that something isn’t right, it probably isn’t. Here’s a relationship ongoing for almost three years and she turns around one-day and treats me like a stranger.

It’s really a shame, I guess you really have to be careful with who you talk to and who you open yourself up to. And you think it’s gets easier when you get older? Nope.

Truth be told, I should’ve left her sitting there on her porch by herself when I drove to her house to meet her for the first time.

Fellas, if a woman has five kids from three different men, and all of those men left her, there’s probably a very good reason.

Well, I’m seeing it first hand now for myself.