The more I look at my birth chart, the more I just have to laugh.

Okay, there’s the rarity of the pentagon. There’s the upside down pentagram when the lines of the pentagon are extended.

The points of the star touch exactly where Venus conjuncts the Sun in it’s 584-day cycle.

The Moon is opposite Chiron!

And, out of all the things, if you look at a photo of Baphomet, you’ll see the light on the top of his head in between his horns.

Well, in between the horns on my chart, there’s Vesta, the symbol of the eternal flame!

In New Age belief and fringe theory, starseeds, also known as star people or indigo children, are a variation of the idea of alien-human hybrids. Starseeds believe they were born on Earth after reawakening from another planet. They also believe they can act as a link between divine realms and Earth, and that they can travel between galaxies through meditation.

As it was shown to me in a dream, I believe my awakening occurred on Uranus. I was on Uranus when it turned on it’s side. It was a scary dream that I had to pull myself out of because once the planet turned on its side 90 degrees, I couldn’t get up. I was pinned to the ground on my side.

The pentacle in my chart indicates a star-seed birth. That’s a blessing, not a curse.

Chapter 2

¹Let’s put it like this.

²We live in a universe that’s electromagnetic. We attract to us what belongs to us. When the time is right for you, you will attract all the abundance and good fortune you can handle.

³Okay.

⁴What you’ve attracted belongs to you, it yours. She’s yours, but she’s of me. And instead of enjoying her, you desire to know and question what she’s of.

_⁵Therefore, piece of shit, you’re no longer content with her. You’re now obsessed with me.

⁶The problem with that is that I don’t want to know you. I hate you. Take the blessing that you attract and enjoy it. Don’t concern yourself with me, what I’m doing, or how I do what I do.

⁷Personally, for me, I’m beyond duality. I walk a middle path, it’s hard, but I do it. A lot of people hate me for it. I’m not concerned with them, extremes, or people who can’t let go.

⁸Life is fast, live and let live.

⁹Because I’m beyond duality, I’m not so quick to label things as good or bad, God/Devil, and so on. But, understand something, life can be complicated.

¹⁰People who subscribe to duality do so to make sense of life. I don’t need to. Life makes sense to me.

Somebody said to me, “You need to open your heart to your family, not strangers.”

Let me tell you something. I’m God, and my heart space is heaven. I’m it, I cannot open my heart space for you, you have to open it.

I have no control over that.

What I can tell you is that I’m real. I like originality. I like people who are masters of their craft. I like people who are genuine and sincere.

Purity doesn’t mean being a virgin. It’s means being pure of heart. Act without aggression, hate, jealousy, envy, spitefulness, and deceit. If you don’t want to do something, don’t do it.

The Universe blessed me with Uranus on the 25th degree of Scorpio in the 5th House. That’s x-ray vision-that’s the ability to see through shit.

I see through you, and if I detect any bullshit, my heart won’t open.

Family or not. Sorry.

There’s a lot of places you can go for help with addiction, and there’s a lot of certified professionals you can go to as well. There’s also drug counseling. It is my opinion, however, that there’s no better coaching when it comes to addiction then what’s offered by someone who went through it personally.

I don’t like to brag, and I never really do, but I will take this time to brag.

Going cold turkey, I quit Lexapro, Oxycontin, Percocet and Vicodin, Adderall at 90 mgs per day, and suboxone twice. That’s quite a list, I know, thank you.

What I want to share with whoever needs to hear this today is my secret for getting off suboxone. This is priceless.

Suboxone is what they give people who have an addiction to pain medication, but at some point you have to get off the Suboxone as well, and Suboxone carries a nasty with drawl.

First of all, you need to be ready to stop taking suboxone, and I knew I was ready to stop taking it when I would leave my house without it. Suboxone was always on my mind, and I always took it with me wherever I went. It became as routine as putting your wallet and car keys on the dresser.

Then, one day, I left the house with a free mind. I started my car, and I said, “Wait a minute, I’m forgetting something.” It was my suboxone, but right there, I knew I was ready because it wasn’t ruling my mind.

So, here it is. You’re not going to get over taking suboxone by weaning. You can. You can gradually reduce your dosage. Whatever it is, 8mg, to 6 mg, to 4 mg, to 2 mg, to 1 mg daily. You’re still going to with drawl when you finally decide to stop taking it.

Many times I gradually reduced my daily dosage only to go running back to my doctor a day later. Don’t kid yourself, don’t lie to yourself, and don’t fucking play with suboxone. Respect it because it’s fucking your body up.

The only way to conquer suboxone is to force yourself to go without it. Good has to overcome evil, and by that, I mean, in a ten day span, you have to go more days not taking it then you do taking it. This will gradually give your body a chance to adjust. Take it one one day, then take a day off. In ten days, it’s tied 5-5.

Take it one day, then take two days off. Good is winning 6-4. Take it one day, then go three days without it. Good is winning 7-3.

God gave you free will, and anything that takes away your free will can only be evil. EVERYTHING and ANTHIING that controls you is bad. Dependency is bad.

The fight comes when you decide to go without it. I was taking 6 to 8 mg daily for five years. Five years! That’s a long time to be on a medication, but I needed it. Then, I was forced to go three days without it. I went nuts.

They were the three worst days ever. I knew if I didn’t go back to my doctor I was either going to get beat up, get locked up, or lose my job. But, I made a promise to myself. I said, “I just went three days without, and as bad as that was, I’m still alive.” I promised myself that if I went back to my doctor that I would continue to build off that three day head start.

Instead of going back to 6 to 8 mg, I took 2mg so I could eat, go to work, and sleep. I wasn’t able to do any of that. That 2 mg piece was just enough to get me over the hump. Having it in my possession, but knowing I didn’t need it was comforting. Don’t get rid of it until you’re over it. You’ll have panic attacks if you need it and don’t have it.

The half-life on suboxone is long. That’s why if you take it everyday you’re only overkilling your body.

If you take it Sunday, then on Monday your mind says take it, don’t. You’ll get nausea, heart burn, stomach cramps, and anxiety. That’s pretty much the progression. Then, you’ll get aggravated, miserable, angry, and maybe violent. That’s good. Keep going.

You’ll threaten people, you’ll tell your mother to go fuck herself, and basically expose yourself for the addict that you are. That’s good, get it all out. Keep going.

When you get to point where you’re unable to sleep, unable to eat, and unable to go to work because you’re incapable of dealing with people in your condition, and it’s been a few days, then you’re just about where you need to be.

Take a small piece to take the edge off, and keep progressing.

Good luck!

In closing, I would like to say this. I have patience, compassion, and understanding for people who are addicted to drugs. Some people are overwhelmed and killed by their addictions, and others win their lives back.

Conquering your addictions is your responsibility, and you deserve as many chances as you need to win your life back.

Addiction is the friendly guy who comes to you when you’re young, vulnerable, and going through hard times. He sees you struggling, and he says, “Hey, I can get you through this.”

He extends his open hand, you indulge, and all your problems seem to go away. But they don’t.

What actually happens is the clock stops. Addiction stops the clock, he numbs you, and he makes you forget about your problems, it doesn’t solve your problems.

It takes your mind and focuses it on him so you’re not thinking about your problems, and in the process, he stops time. You think you’re progressing, but you never are. The clock doesn’t resume until you conquer addiction and face life with a sober mind.

The first picture is of our Blessed Lady, Mary, and the second picture is of a peacock.

This is really crazy because I’ve been talking to this woman for three years, and every once in a while, she disappears for weeks and months at a time.

This happens to be one of those times where she’s MIA, and interestingly enough, on her birthday, which is in two days on the 18th, the Sun will be on the 28th degree of Taurus.

A woman pursued by mature romance, um, yeah, that’s what’s literally happening.

And, then, the next day when the Sun reaches the 29/30th degree on the 19th, the Sabian Symbol represented is below.

I just can’t make this stuff up.

After watching Greg Braden’s interview with Andre Duqum, I was pulled back to this piece of work I completed a year or two ago. It’s probably the most important thing I could share with you at this point.

We’ve made things so complicated. Think in terms that are simple.

When I wrote my third book, Smorgasbord 3 Poverty and Prophecy, I wrote a seventy page analysis of the astrological chart for the murder of JFK. I was obsessed with it, and when I realized RFK Sr. was murdered in 1968, I went further down the rabbit hole.

Well, check this out. I went back this morning and checked the Venus cycle in my birth chart, and this is what I found.

Venus in my chart is on the 27th degree of Pisces in the 9th house. Venus takes 225 days to make 1 orbit.

Venus’s 8th orbit around my chart were between the dates, 6/6/1984 and 1/17/1985! RFK Sr. was assassinated on 6/6 in 1968, and RFK Jr., our current presidential candidate was born on 1/17 in 1954.

Let me repeat that. The date range of Venus’s 8th trip around my chart were between the dates of the murder of a father and the birth of his son!

There were 225 days between 6/6/1984 and 1/17/1985.

I also found an interesting connection with the number 9. The Venus cycle is 225 days. 2+2+5=9. Every time you add 225, it equals a number that can be added and reduced to 9. Example: 225, 450, 675, 900, 1125, 1350, etc.

So, it makes it even more interesting that Venus, in my chart, is on the 27th degree in the 9th House.

Chiron returns at age 50-51.

The Sumerian God Marduk had 50 names, which gave him power.

Jason had 50 Argonauts.

The Orbit of Sirius A around Sirius B is 50 years.

The Jubilee in the Roman Cycle was 50 years.

Economists are giving increasing weight to the 50-year Kondratieff Wave Cycle.

At the Jubilee, the Bible teaches that Christians should forgive all debt and start anew.

Pentecost means the 50th.

Thank you, Barbara Hand Clow, for that information.

I’ll add this..

Then, Francis Joseph LaManna looked at his birth chart, and he saw Chiron in the 10th house sitting on the Pentagon! And, opposite the Moon!

Then, he looked down into his lap at all the money he had left to his name, and it was 5 50 dollar bills!