Yesterday

Okay, so the past of an individual is important for several different reasons, and at the end of the day, there’s something about our past that must be kept in perspective.

I think it’s easier for us to begin this conversation with what we must keep in perspective, and that’s two things. Our past, all the years, months, days, hours, minutes, and seconds leading up to this current moment tell the story of how we arrived at the present moment. All of the choices we made and everything we’ve experienced made us who we are, and for that, we must make peace with our past.

What does that mean?

In our past, we’ve done things, we’ve made decisions, and we’ve had experiences that; made us proud, brought laughter and joy, made us feel guilty or shameful, scared us and those who loved us, did or didn’t make sense, and we probably came close to dying a few times. We fought, we cried, we made friends, and we lost friends.

At some point, issues from the past must be resolved or celebrated, we forgive, we thank, and then, we must close the door or file all that stuff away.

The second thing is that the past must be let go of. No matter how hard it is to do, we must let go of it because you cannot live in the present moment and the past at the same time. Life is growth, so if you’re still stuck on something that happened twenty years ago, you’re not living.

In a sense, we’re like planets. It takes us 365.25 days to run one lap around the sun, and upon completion, we get a year older. Did you ever notice how the planets go retrograde when they’re entering a new sign? Pluto for example, as it was entering Aquarius for the first time in a long time, crossed over the Capricorn and Aquarius border into Aquarius for a short time. Then, Pluto went retrograde back into Capricorn for a brief time before blazing a trail forward back into Aquarius.

This retrograde motion is a planet retracing its steps, tying up lose ends, and making sure everything is good before it moves forward. They’re making peace with the sign they were previously in.

When it comes to moving forward, I have something of great value to share with you. For many years, I had an addiction to pain medication, and to help me resolve that issue, I took another medication.

During that time, I was in the prime of my life, and I actually applied or tried to become a police officer several times. That career never worked out for me, and I know personally, that if I wasn’t addicted to pain medication, it probably would’ve become a police officer, and I would’ve been successful.

Many years passed by, and I missed out on some really good opportunities. Then, at one point, I ran out of medication, and I had to go a day or two without it. My body began to heal, and during those two days, I saw for the first time since applying to become a police officer, billboard signs on the highway about joining the police force.

This was an incredible revelation because it showed me that even though I thought I was moving forward and progressing, my addiction actually stunted my growth and mentally, it kept me stuck in the past. My vision was literally limited.

What I wanted to tell you is that if you decide to escape life with drugs and end up forming an addiction, your life stops as soon as your addiction begins. It will not resume until you get sober. So, think about that.

You must progress, move on and forward, and grow. If you’re around people that keep you stuck in the past because they refuse to move forward, then you have to get away from them. Not everyone is capable of making peace with their past. If you want, you can help them, but don’t let them drag you into their hole.

Sometimes, people get so mad at me because they say I’ve changed. You should be changing, and if you’re not, then there’s a problem. You shouldn’t be the person you were twenty years ago, right now today.

You past is important because it’s the path you took to get where you are today. So, if something doesn’t make sense now, or if you’re suddenly feeling lost, or like you’ve made the wrong decision at some point, you can always go back to your past and reflect.

Is There a Connection Between Chinon and Chiron?

It was said that at one time, the term Born Again literally meant that one was born again or had reincarnated. Today, born again has taken on a somewhat different meaning that one could assume is only a symbolic representation of.

But you guys know me, and you know that I’ve spent years studying reincarnation. I believe it.

People say that Mother Earth is a living breathing organism with a heartbeat or pulse rate (Schuman Resonance), and if you agree with that, then perhaps there’s the possibility that these amazing crop circles we’ve seeing pop up are an outward manifestion of what’s on the inside of Mother. Maybe she’s revealing her heart.

Between 2015 and 2020, a crop circle formation popped up of the Templar Cross with no answers as to where it came from or who might’ve been responsible for creating it.

Interestingly enough, this was several years after the publication of Robert Howell’s book, Inside the Priory of Sion, and just about the time that the show Knightfall premiered, which was all about the Templar Knights.

So, what’s the connection here?

There was a document that was lost in the Vatican library archives that was rediscovered in 2001. It was called the Chinon Parchment, and apparently, it talked about the investigation into the original claims and charges of heresy that were brought against the Templars.

Several Cardinals from the Vatican had decided not to put the Templars to death for these claims, instead, they decided to allow the Templars to continue their business under a different name.

Unfortunately, the King of France owed the Templars a lot of money because he was borrowing from them to finance his wars. The debt eventually grew to outrageous levels, and the King of France had no intention of paying it back, so he decided to go after the Templars.

He was furious that they beat the charges of heresy, which in those days was punishable by death, so he decided to murder the Pope, and replace him with a close personal friend. With the King of France and the Pope now on the same page, the Templars were in serious trouble, and we all heard the stories about how the Templars were burned alive, crucified, and brutally murdered.

It is my personal opinion that the Founding Fathers of America, like Benjamin Franklin and George Washington, who were well known Masons, were also Templars hiding under a new name. That’s why they created America with the separation between the church and the state.

Knowing your history so you’re not doomed to repeat it makes all the sense in the world now, and no longer would any church and government be able to team up and attack a free people.

Now, remember, I believe in reincarnation.

In astrology, we have this little symbol that looks like a key. It’s called Chiron.

Astrologically, Chiron is said to represent a core wound within us that we either bring into this life from a previous one, which means that’s it’s unresolved karma, or it’s one that developed during childhood.

Chinon and Chiron look similar. Very similar.

So, if reincarnation is real, and Chiron represents a core wound we brought into this life as unresolved karma, then there’s a real connection between what happened to the Templars eventually and the wounds we seek to heal in this life that are represented by Chiron.

If the Chinon Parchment reveals the truth that the Pope initially cleared the Templars of all heresy charges preventing their untimely deaths, then everything would’ve been fine if the story ended there.

But it didnt.

Because the King of France wanted to murder every Templar living on the earth and needed the Vaticans help to do it, then that would explain the unresolved karma.

Before the Grand Master of the Templars was brought to the stake to be burned alive, he put a curse on both the King and the Pope, and both died in that same year.

Think about this situation.

You’re a Templar knight, your organization was originally funded by the Vatican in its infancy stages, and you fought for God and pledged your allegiance to the Pope.

The Templars and the Pope were together at one time. It was the King of France who turned the church against the Templars.

Now, you’re being crucified and burned alive for charges you were already acquitted of.

If you look at a book that specifically deals with Chiron, you’ll see how the wounds you have are defined by Chirons’ placements in the signs and houses.

For example, I have Chiron in the 10th House in Taurus. That means my wounds in the 10th House are related to career and reputation with the public, and because they’re in Taurus, they are, A lack of self-worth, A lack of feeling solid or safe, Value based on material possessions, and always vulnerable.

If we go back to what happened to the Templars, we see betrayal, deceit, manipulation, jealousy, envy, greed, hatred, infiltration at the highest levels, and we see a massive conspiracy to commit genocide.

The King and the Pope had full control of Europe, so it was the Templars against the world, literally.

Untimely deaths and murder result in unresolved karma, and all those wounds I just listed for someone having Chiron in Taurus have one thing in common. As a matter of fact, all the wounds that Chiron represents in all of the zodiac signs have one common root that can also be found in the story with the Templars.

Trust! Almost all of those Chirotic wounds develope out of a lack of trust.

Well, if you’re the victim of a massive conspiracy aimed to kill you and everyone you know in the manner it was done, you wouldn’t trust anyone afterwards.

So, here we are. It’s 2024, and some karma has been left unresolved.

Regarding Positive Affirmations

Two years ago, I gave a special person a list containing thirty of my most important positive affirmations. I stuck it to her refrigerator before leaving her house one day, and when I came back, I noticed it was gone.

She said she threw it out, and then, she asked, “Who the hell do you think you are writing a list like that? You’re really conceited,” she said.

I was shocked because not only did she have no idea what a positive affirmation was, but she thought I was a terrible person for creating such a list. What’s funny is that here we are, it’s two years later, and she’s now making videos offering words of guidance and hope.

So, basically, she shit on me, and then like everyone else, proceeded to take my ideas, move forward, and pass them off as her own.

Fuck you for that.

Anyway, I wanted to share something important about positive affirmations because after all these years of using them, I just for the first time today, got it.

Life has a flow, and you should always go with the flow. You’re supposed to do your best and try your hardest, and if that’s not good enough to bring you success, prosperity, and good fortune in your current situation, then so be it.

There might be consequences that arise from your shortcomings. So be it. Every seemingly negative situation or setback you experience, can be dwelt upon, which would stifle your progress, or they could be looked at in a positive way to help promote the change you seek.

Keep moving forward, remain humble, and continue putting your best foot forward. At some point, things will change for the better, and the life you so passionately desire will be yours one day. There’s a flow to life, and as long as we remain in flow, we’ll put ourselves in the right places at the right times to receive our blessings.

Positive affirmations are designed to help you through that time. They’re not only reminders of how powerful and special we truly are, but they’re designed to keep out negative thinking while reprogramming your thought process and inner dialogue.

Don’t ever think your arrogant or conceited for making an I Am list.

It isn’t until you’re really down and suffering beat up from life’s tests and challenges, and it isn’t until you’ve tried and tried to move forward only to realize you’ve been running head-first into a brick wall that the time for understanding the true value of positive affirmations will finally be upon you.

It is at that time, that you’ll awaken to what the flow of life is all about, and you realize, no matter how bad things get, they’ll eventually get better.

Robert F. Kennedy Jr.

You thought you buried the Kennedy family didn’t you? Well, if RFK Jr. runs for president of the United States, he will be the first president I ever voted for.

I think it’s absolutely disgusting how the mainstream keeps mentioning RFK Jr. and the words, conspiracy theorist is the same sentence.

It’s disgusting, and it’s hard to believe actually because we already know a certain group of people like to cast out, downplay the importance of, and muddy the waters of truth by using the terms conspiracy, and conspiracy theorist.

This is biblical, and I turn your attention to Isaiah chapter 8 verse 12: Do not call conspiracy everything this people calls a conspiracy; do not fear what they fear, and do not dread it.

It’s time. It’s time for America to put a president in the white house who is going to take care of America. Our government has spent trillions of dollars funding illegal immigration and Ukraine’s war against Russia, while the poverty issue in this country has grown dramatically.

Look at what’s going on in the streets of Philadelphia. People are shooting up and tweaking right on the street. That’s 3rd world country shit! No more.

Next point. The World Health Organization doesn’t run this country. It’s time to start removing anything, any group, or any organization that’s unconstitutional.

Never in my life, in 43 years of living, have I ever seen what I’ve seen during the pandemic. If you want to wear a mask, get vaccinated, or stay inside for the rest of your life, that’s a choice for you to make personally. That’s your choice.

I can’t believe what I’m seeing. A job won’t hire you unless you’ve been vaccinated? We’re being forced, and this isn’t aimed at my generation. It’s aimed at our children. One day our children’s children are going to be living in a country where they’re not going to have a choice when it comes to medical treatment and care.

RFK Jr. was against this, and that’s why they constantly mention his name and conspiracy theorist in the same sentence. If you tell the truth, and you push back, they attempt to destroy your credibility and your name. And, that’s what they’re trying to do to him.

How different would this country be if all that money was kept home?

I just saw an article titled, RFK Jr. headed for breakup with the democratic party. I think CNN wrote it, and I didn’t read it.

But, I don’t doubt that RFK Jr. and the democratic party are on different pages. This isn’t the democratic party of the 60’s that favored hard working middle class America. Today’s democratic party is extreme left. Too extreme for a man like RFK Jr. America today is a hybrid system of Fascism, Communism, and Socialism. The Constitutional Republic, our founder’s system, was sold out for Democracy, and our democracy has failed miserably like every other democracy in the history of the world.

So, what’s left? If we don’t restore the constitutional republic, Americans will be under total control. That’s not my opinion. We’ve given too much power away.

Just like the individual who’s on that spiritual journey right now trying to reclaim his/her personal power, that’s what we need to be doing as citizens of this country.

Take myself as an example. I’m a healthy 43 year old man with 20 years of work experience, a Bachelor of Arts, and the author of two books, and I’m a poor American. I had $19 to my name last week.

If I didn’t have parents, I’d be a bum. And, I sit here and watch our government give free food, free education, free medical, and free housing to a bunch of people who aren’t even citizens of this country?

Are you kidding?

And if you tell the truth you’re either a racist or a conspiracy theorist. No way. You’re not going to convince me that there’s something wrong with me. It’s you.

A Complete and Total Life Change

In a time of Universal deceit, truth-telling becomes a revolutionary act.
George Orwell

In a way, I feel like the character (Bobby Pool) from the story I just wrote, Loop, because since 2007, I’ve been stuck in a repeating situation. Since 2016, this situation has intensified.

I’ll get hired at a job, and everything is great. Around the fifth or sixth month, as soon as I begin to get out of debt and reach a point of financial stability, something happens that causes me to lose my job.

Then, I’ll go a month or two without a job before finally getting hired again, but by that time, I’ve fallen back into debt again.

I used to analyze this problem, and believe me, I’ve taken full responsibility, but I can’t take responsibility anymore. I can’t blame myself anymore, and it’s time for me to accept this situation for what it is.

Maybe it’s time for a change, a big change; like packing up what little I have and moving by myself to another part of the country, or out of the country. I’m not hiding anything, and I’m not running from anyone.

I’m a hard-worker. I show up ready to work and on time whenever I’m scheduled. I’m always in a great mood, and I always greet my co-workers.

I don’t owe anyone anymore than that.

I don’t have go overboard to accommodate envious, jealous, and miserable people. If you don’t like me, that’s okay. You don’t have to talk to me. If you want to make up lies and stories about me, that’s okay.

But, I will not be a shit-on, and I will not be disrespected. I expect to be treated the way I treat people, and if you come to work miserable because of something that happened at home or with your spouse or your children, that’s not my problem. If you think you’re going to boost your mood and release your anger and misery by shitting on me, then you’re delusional. I will speak up. I will call you out.

I’m not that person, and that’s not fair to me-but if that’s what I’m going to be fired for, then your job isn’t for me.

If you’re my manager or boss and you’re treating me unfairly and asking or requiring me to do things you don’t require from other employees, I’m going to speak up. I’ll always be an outspoken person who tells the truth.

I don’t get along with liars, people who are full of pride, or people who are in competition with me. I have nothing to prove, and the only person I’m in competition with is me. I’m trying to be the best person I can be, I’m not trying to be better than you.

I don’t have time anymore for immaturity, adults who act like children, people who are needy for attention, people who need their egos stroked, people who are threatened by my intelligence, and people who believe the false opinions they have of me before they even meet me.

I’m 43-years-old, and I don’t have much money, but I’m operating at a high level spiritually and mentally. I guess it’s time for me to find my place in the world. It’s time for me to find the people who are operating on or above my level.

I’m always the eagle in a nest of pigeons, but I think it’s time for me to find the company who can help me learn and evolve. It’s time to leave those who are draining me behind. That’s not being conceited, it’s the truth.

And in today’s society, telling the truth is a revolutionary act.

Descendant, Origin of the Soul; Conversation

Part 1 and Part 2 of Descendant, Origin of the Soul has been published.

I’m trying to figure out how I can open this up for conversation and exactly what I’m trying to get out of it.

If you have a descendant between the 25th degree of Capricorn and the 5th degree of Aquarius, I’d like to know if your life feels fated in some way. I’d like to know if you feel like you have a purpose; do you feel like you were put here for something specific?

Do you feel like you lived before?

I have to be honest here, this spiritual path for me came out of nowhere around 2007, and I’m just now starting to understand why it did. Everything points to independence and self-discovery; like a detachment from the collective to learn about myself, and then return when I have something worth sharing.

I’d like to hear from you! Have a great day.

Eternal Love

This will be easier to understand if you follow astrology, but even if you don’t, you’ll still get it.

My natal moon is on the 2nd degree of Scorpio, which is kind of interesting because for the first, I think, 12 hours of the day I was born on, the moon was in Libra. I think it just entered Scorpio a few hours before my birth.

Scorpio is not a very good placement to have a moon. They say the fixed nature of Scorpio makes it difficult for the native to be emotional, and because of that, most people who have a natal moon in Scorpio are misunderstood.

On top of that, my natal sun is in detriment in Aquarius in the 7th House. I’ve often heard people say a 7th House Sun is born in bondage, and maybe there’s something to that because I’m 43, and I’ve never been married. I’ve always felt like committing myself to a relationship meant sacrificing a part of myself.

There’s lots of interesting stuff like this going on in my chart, and I’ll give you one more before I get to my point. Mercury is exhalted in Aquarius, but in Pisces, it’s in its fall. Mercury in my chart is on the zero point degree of Pisces.

You can’t make this stuff up!

I’ve always believed a chart full of unfavorable placements and aspects was full of opportunities and mysteries, and I think that holds true.

Now, despite the amount of illusion in my chart, there’s one thing that definitely stands out, and that’s my ascendant. I’ve been practicing and studying astrology since 2008, and it was only two months that I finally woke up to truth about my ascendant.

The numerical code for “I Love You” is 143. The feast of Saint Mary Magdalene, Apostle of the Apostles, and the first of the women who followed Jesus to proclaim Him as having risen from the dead is celebrated on July 22nd.

7/22, from an astrological perspective, is the end of Cancer and the beginning of Leo.

My ascendant is 1°43 Leo, and I looked at this point in my chart probably thousands of times over the years, and it never meant anything to me until two months ago.

Now, it carries a special meaning.

Despite all the uncertainty, all the illusion, and all the detriments and falls; no matter how difficult and hard life gets, there’s a message of eternal love right on my ascendant.

It’s not Fair

It’s not fair to verbally attack me, and yell at me when you’re in a bad mood. It’s not fair that you constantly ruin my days, mornings and nights, weekends, personal time, creative time, and time off because you’re upset.

You’re anger and personal issues are contagious and bring everyone down around you.

When you’re in a bad mood, you fight and argue with everyone around you until you’ve had your fill, and you carry on until the people around you are no longer happy, but miserable and upset.

And then, you have the nerve to laugh!

It’s your laughter at that point that angers me the most, because you just destroyed everything around you. How could you laugh? How could you be that selfish?

Mothers and women are supposed to be a source of love and care, and if that’s your way of loving, I don’t want it or anything to do with it.

Happy Mothers Day.

I forgive you, and I hope one day you find your source of happiness.

Until then, I ask that you have enough curtesy and consideration to not terrorize my life. Because that’s exactly what that is, it’s terrorism.

Sex

Good evening friends, followers, and fans!

I do apologize. If you’ve been following me for the last five years, you might’ve noticed a drop in productivity. You’re right, the numbers are way down, and while it would be my choice to write and blog-posting two to three times per day, that scenario isn’t my reality yet. The bills have to get paid, and until this blog can do that, I have to work.

Okay, so, lets get into the meat of this post. I’m a fair guy, and I’m sure there are lots of men and woman out here who are fair as well. I’m not a selfish person. When two people are talking, meaning they met at some point, continued talking with one another, and their relationship eventually progressed to the level of intimacy, the big talk is going to come at some point.

The big talk is about what two people want out of a relationship. We’ve been sleeping together for several months, and things have been good. Then, one day, you tell me you want more. You want someone who’s going to be with you on a serious level. You want someone who’s going to love you and your children, and take care of things financially.

That’s a lot to ask of someone, but not unreasonable. I’m fair. I say to you, listen, I love you. We’ve been talking and sleeping with one another for a while, but at this point, I can’t give you what you want. I’m just not ready. If you feel like you want more, and you want to be able to date to find Mr. Right, go ahead. I’m not going to stop you from meeting someone who can give you what I can’t.

I’m not giving you the nod to start having casual sex and one night stands on a regular basis. That’s not right, and that’s not fair.

Moving forward.

When it comes to sex, I’ll admit, I’m not a saint. I’ve had lots of premarital sex in my 20’s. However, I was always in a relationship. I was never into one night stands, or sex with random people, and I’ll tell you why.

Sex, to me, is more enjoyable and more stimulating when love is involved. Some people love having sex, and they love having lots of random sex with lots of random people. That’s not really me.

For me, sex is first mental, then physical. It’s starts with an eye catching attraction. Something about you draws me to you, and it could be a beautiful face, a nice butt, or whatever. I’ll approach you, and things progress from there. The most enjoyable sex for me is when I can connect with my partner on a mental level. Sex starts in the mind, and it manifests physically.

I’m mature, and I don’t paly games. There’s a progression to things. You can have the best body in the world, you can have the nicest ass on the planet, and you might be really good at what you do, but if we’re not connecting on a mental level, none of that matters.

To the people who are more serious about sex, and the people who might not be sexually active yet, I had an epiphany several months ago. My body is a temple, and I want to keep that temple clean and healthy.

You eat healthy, you exercise, and you take good care of yourself. You don’t put drugs, alcohol, or nicotine in your body. You’re in pristine condition, untouched. That was me at one time, and I’m sure that’s a lot of people right now.

So, let me share something with you no one ever bothered to share with me.

Sex is a choice, and you should be viewing your body as a temple because if you’re going through all this trouble to keep your temple clean, healthy, and pure, you’re not going to let just anyone enter your temple. You’re not going to be so willing to share your temple.

That was my epiphany. Your body is a house of god. You can’t see what’s going on on the inside, but that’s why the outside is a reflection of the inside. Whatever you see on the surface of your body, is an outward physical manifestation of something going on within. Take your body seriously. Take your life seriously. It’s okay to play, it’s okay to have fun, and it’s okay to hang out and spend time with friends, but make yourself and your life your number one priority because I know now at 43, that no one else is going to.

Have a great night, and enjoy your Sunday tomorrow.

Moon Scope; Breakout Time

April 26, 2023 Edition

Good afternoon, everyone. Welcome to this April 26, 2023 Edition of Moon Scope.

As April comes to an end, we find our waxing crescent moon that’s 6 1/2 days old in the astrological sign of Cancer, and honestly, we couldn’t ask for a better sign to have a moon placement because the Moon rules Cancer. The Moon is home in Cancer, which means the lunar energy will be at its strongest and most prominent.

In the chart I pulled at 9:55 this morning, the Moon was in the 1st house on Cancer’s 21st degree.

The waxing crescent phase is one that’s all about action, and as the Moon’s light brightens up the first house, “the self” comes into focus.

When we take Moon’s phase and the fact that Mars is within 5 degrees of the Moon into consideration, there’s an aggressive approach to some delicate energy here, and the message is to do whatever you have to do to be nurturing towards yourself.

Compassionate, passionate, nurturing, receptive, and sensitive are all words that describe our zodiac’s Crab, and because Cancer is in the 1st house instead of its natural home, the 4th, the attention shifts from home and family to ourselves personally. A lot of people give us shit and call us selfish when we put ourselves first, but taking care of ourselves isn’t selfish.

Most of us possess Cancer-like energy because I think we’re at our happiest when we’re surrounded by family and things that are familiar to us, but my interpretation of this alignment is that it’s time to step out of our comfort zones. It’s time to get away from the familiar and seek new unfamiliar people and experiences that are going to help us grow as individuals.

The crab is the symbol for Cancer, and crabs have a hard, impenetrable shell that protects everything soft and vulnerable underneath. At the first signs of danger, the crab may retreat back into its shell and rush off into the water where it feels safe.

With Mars at our side, it’s definitely not a time to retreat. We are being nudged to break out of our shells. Don’t worry about being vulnerable, and don’t worry about what people are going to think or say when they see the real you.

Lucky Numbers: 3 and 7

Birthstone for Cancer: Pearl